A game of chess.

I suck at chess. But, I was thinking and I should be good at chess, because this is how I sometimes view life. (the below statement)

I am a strategist, I see life as a game to beat. you're all pawns. but, some pawns I have emotional attachments too. Such as family, some friends. Of course some more then others. But each have their important parts in my development to beat the game. The pawns I trust the most, eventually become something more important, such as a knight, or a rook. I'd not be the king however, just someone playing the game. But even the pawns can bring back important players. That's what I am meaning by them becoming something more important, they take the place of the rook, bishop or knight that has failed.

I sound cruel I know. But at times this is how I feel. Somewhat selfish, pretentious even, which is basically undeserved importance. Like I am judging myself higher then my peers. and some, I admit I do, others I don't . The ones I don't, I respect. Now, I'm not saying that everyone I know is a fool, not worth my time, yadda yadda yadda, continuance of bullshit. But you can twist my words however you want, I seriously don't care.

You can even instruct your self to believe that I am putting up a front. Trying to act older than my thoughts, being precocious just to make yourself believe that I am whatever image of me you have in your head. Tell yourself what you want. If it helps you sleep at night.