Untitled.

Hey Hey You You
I don't like your girlfriend
No way No way
I think you need a new one
Hey Hey You You
I could be your girlfriend

Alicia is to obtain a photo of Leonhard,

For Linds.

He's got a cute smile.

And shares knowing smirks with me,

When someone is being a complete idiot.

Its fun, having a sort of ally.

Hey Hey You You

I know that you like me

No way No way

No, it's not a secret

Hey Hey You You

I want to be your girlfriend

I've got more and more friends daily.

More and more of them are realizing that Im cool.

Even the blonde devil in my class is easing up.

Slightly.

You're so fine

I want you mine

You're so delicious

I think about you all the time

You're so addictive

Don't you know

What I can do

To make you feel alright

I've been looking at horoscope shit lately.

Apparently I think I rule the universe.

And Im really shallow and vain.

Oh, and Linds and me would be passionate.

And Aaron and I would be like.. workable.

And Cody and I would be able to read each others minds.

Who fucking figured.

Don't pretend

I think you know

I'm damn precious

And hell yeah

I'm the mother fucking princess

I can tell you like me too

And you know I'm right

Tomorrow it is quite possible,

That I am not going to school tomorrow.

I have to go to the Visa office first.

And depending on how long that takes..

She's like so whatever

You can do so much better

I think we should get together now

And that's what everyone's talking about

Life is going pretty good,

I know Im going to miss Austria now.

At first I wasnt so sure.

But at first I had no friends

no real connections with anyone in my daily life.

Now I've got a family that I love,

Friends who I adore,

Who also think Im insane, but thats a give in.

Extroverted Canadian versus Someone Introverted,

Civilised, and Austrian.

Hmm

Hey Hey You You

I don't like your girlfriend

No way No way

I think you need a new one

Hey Hey You You

I could be your girlfriend

Im running out of things to say.

But the song isnt over yet!

Imma just post the rest.

Deal?

Hey Hey You You

I know that you like me

No way No way

No, it's not a secret

Hey Hey You You

I want to be your girlfriend

I can see the way

I see the way

You look at me

And even when you look away

I know you think of me

I know you talk about me all the time

again and again

So come over here and tell me what I wanna hear

Better, yet, make your girlfriend disappear

I don't wanna hear you say her name ever again

Because...She's like so whatever

You can do so much better

I think we should get together now

And that's what everyone's talking about

Hey Hey You You

I don't like your girlfriend

No way No way

I think you need a new one

Hey Hey You You

I could be your girlfriend

Hey Hey You You

I know that you like me

No way No way

No, it's not a secret

Hey Hey You You

I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger

'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better

There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in

She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger

'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better

There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in

Anyone possibly want to download then send to me?

Pretty Please?

She's so..

Did I forget about the simple rule of life
You pay a price for all your choices
Well I`ve learned my lesson
Looking from the other side

Guy who sings the song is named Tobias Regner.

Go figure.

Alicia's bank card didnt work again today.

But she emailed Ingrid, and she said,

that it was ok and could be late.

So basically Rotary is gunna pay it for me,

And then go "Hey, Alicia, you gotta pay us back"

every five minutes.

BUT I STILL GET TO GO.

I thought that I was through

Don't know who's fooling who cause

Shes, She's so unforgettable

She's so unerasable

It kills me slowly not to be around her

So, She's so unforgivable

And if I never understood

It hits me now

She's so damn good

I had a daydream.

In it, I owned a green jeep,

Was camping, with my mom and her girlfriend

Yah, she had a girlfriend,

Oh, and Cass and my boyfriend.

You dont need to know who that was.

I had a party with 50 people,
got engaged,
got pulled over by the cops,
(For having my music too loud.)

And someone asked me to sleep with him,

which made me laugh.

I talk myself into that bullshit all the time

At least it made me so much wiser

I tell my friends I really got her off my mind

Then I told my mom I was,

engaged and not a virgin.

Just like, a passing comment.

And she was like "uh, what?!"

Then I explained to her,

That when my grandmother took me,

to Austria for a vacation,

I snuck out, leaving her sleeping,

in my host families house,

And ran into a friend..

Yeahhh....

Did I say that I was through?

Don't know who's fooling who cause

She's so unforgettable

She's so unerasable

It kills me slowly not to be around her

She's so unforgivable

And if I never understood

It hits me now

She's so damn good

Other then that, I get to pay 1230€

But my bank card isnt working

I also missed my german lesson today

Because she made it an hour earlier.

And didnt tell me.

Then blamed it on me that I had a free hour

the hour before the class, so she couldnt find me,

Though in the break she was talking to my friend,

sitting right fucking beside me,

and could of told me then.

Wish what I feel

Could be for real

Not just a one way cry

That don't seem to fly

I was going to make a post totally in German.

But then I thought of Linds.

So I figured Id be nice.

Though she thinks I have the mindset,

Of an undersexed teenaged boy.

I dont hold it against her.

She's so unforgettable

She's so unerasable

It kills me slowly not to be around her

She's so unforgivable

And if I never understood

It hits me now Shes

She's so damn good

So this lady that goes on my bus every once in a while talked to me.
She said "wow, its hot," and took off her toque. (Its pronounced tuuk)
Then she asked me to set the time on her cellphone cause she didnt understand it.
Well, I dont really understand cellphone german either, but I knew enough from
fiddling around on my sisters and looking at the pictures.
So I set it for her.
Then she started talking about the mountains and snow.
But she said mountain instead of berg.
So I knew she spoke english.
So I interupted asking, and we started talking in english.
I think she is from like, Jamaica.
Nice lady.

Bank Card wasnt working today.
I tried it 3 times. Then it was like "sorry, no more trying"
Said I had the wrong pincode.
I know my pincode.
And I need to pay my skicamp
By tomorrow!.


Shitshitshitshit

Weekend.

Hello? Is anyone there? Can anyone hear me? Can anyone feel me? Am I even here? Im feeling like Im floating. And not in that good, on a light cloud way. On that weird sinking gravity confusing cloud way. It could be the fact that my life is basically a rollercoaster right now, and I have only slept 3 hours, and have school tomorrow. I really wish I was Chels, she doesnt have to go to school, she just lounges on the Thai beaches.
I was so excited about Eurotour, and I might not be able to go, because of the stupid Visa, which I didnt get around to obtaining. Well, I tried, back in December, and then I forgot about it after the school break ended. Then I remembered and I have everything I need for it, but I have to go with my councellor, and he is like, not returning my calls. But if I dont have it
by March 15th the latest, I might not be able to go. Fuck.
I also have to email my mom and ask her to fax me some thing saying from her that I am allowed going, as we are going to a whole lot of different countries. Im going to Spain and Holland and Cheq. and Italy and the whole tour starts about a half hour away from where I live. Which means I dont have to take a 4 hour train with pent up nerves of seeing everyone again. And I can go early, because its not far. Or I could sleep in and go late.
We went to Zankl yesterday and today. My host sister was a bit sad because the younger one didnt show up, and the older one did, and was being a bit of an ass. Though no one seemed to remember him being an ass before, I do. It was funny for me. But he was still hitting on me and stuff, so thats always fun. Then (this was saturday) we went home and my other host sisters best friend and her were like, a bit on edge, so the friend hung out with me and the younger host sister and they fell asleep at 2 or so. Alicia did not have that luxury.
She fell asleep at 3.30 and woke up at about 5 because she was cold. So she ran upstairs, grabbed her blanket and ran back down. We all slept on the same couch, three of us girls. Then Alicia fell back asleep about 7, and we woke up at 8 and had breakfast (which was fresh from
Italy) and played a really complicated version of Uno (when a 9 is up you have to slap hands down, last one down has to take two cards, when a 1 is up, you have to connect thumbs up signs and the one on the top takes a card, when a 7 is up, you switch hands counterclockwise.) and
an Italian game and watched some movies. Then we went back to Zankl, at about 6pm, after Tati (Tatiana. 13, sluttish.) showed up. Played some foosball, stole a ball so we dont have to pay an euro every time, (we just put cardboard in the goals, then the ball goes in, but not down.) drank some sprite (Im the only one old enough to drink Alcohol, and really didnt want to.) got bored and went home. Tati is sleeping here tomorrow. She is avery odd girl. My host sister Eva says that she doesnt like her. But then Tati says she has the number of the younger, that Eva likes, and all of a sudden they are gossiping and giggling like lifemates. Its kinda sad, how much Eva wants the number.

Song break:

Mach die Augen zu und Küss mich.
Und dann sag das du mich liebst.
Ich weis genau, es ist nicht wahr.
Doch ich spüre keinen Unterschied, wenn du dich mir hingibst.

And for Linds, (And others?) the less romantic english version!
Roughly Translated by me personally!

Close your eyes and kiss me.
And then say that you love me
I know that its is not true,
but there is no difference if you give yourself to me.

Im thinking Im too lazy to translate the whole song.
Read it here if you want the whole damn thing. ^^Click Here. +)

I dont know what else to say, writing for the sake of writing gets boring it seems.
There is this cute boy in the class of my friends. I hang out there in the break. (Only one break, 15 minutes. So sad.)He talks to me, one day I was on the computer when he was beside me, (this was in my free block) and he was all "Wow, look how fast she types," and started imitating me, which, really, all he did was pound the keyboard. I actually articulate thought, for the most part. There is another boy in that class, he always talks to me too, but not cute. He is always "Hello! How are you,So, where exactly do you live? Do you need money? (This was when I was buying something at the canteen) "Good english.
Tomorrow I have two hours first thing of history. I dont like my history teacher. He asked me a question one dayconcerning History, like "What are your views on the downfall of the Roman empire" or some shit, cause he didntrealize I am an exchanger. Then he was all "oh, I didnt know" when everyone started laughing and saying "ya, she doesntknow much german".
I do, really, they just dont need to know that. Its not my fault that they dont have the patience to let me think about it.I can write better then I can speak though. Its that whole, afraid of saying it wrong because I usually do thing. But whatever.
I have to play Volleyball on the 6th of March in a school tournament.
Apparently Tati and Eva are going to Zankl tomorrow. I have 12 hours school (till 6pm) tomorrow, and then Volleyball after. It never seemed like a lot of time back home, being at school till 6. Here it is like, a life sentence.

So this is Alicia as the artist started painting her face. Her host sister Eva decided that it would be a good idea to take photo's all the way through. Then she got offered alcohol and forgot, so Alicia had to remind her. This is rather difficult, typing enough to span the size of the picture so the other picture gets enough space and whatnot. Layout making is tough work. Anyways, the whole painting took like... 20 minutes. In the future, when I cant think of information, I will be posting song lyrics. Just so you know in advance.

This is the artist that painted Alicia's face.
He also painted some pictures that are hanging up in Zankl, lyrics will be in another colour.

Mama was queen of the mambo

Papa was king of the Congo

Deep down in the jungle

I started bangin' my first bongo

Every monkey'd like to be

In my place instead of me

Cause I'm the king of bongo,

babyI'm the king of bongo bong

This is Patricia. She is 9 or something. Cute little kid. Likes to play cards and foosball. Thankfully not the annoying little 11 year old that wouldnt shut up about the boys that kept looking at me.

Like its really my fault that people look at me.

Im used to it.

I went to the big town

Where there is a lot of sound

From the jungle to the city

Looking for a bigger crown

So I play my boogie

For the people of big city

But they don't go crazy

When I'm bangin' in my boogie

This is (From left to right); Andy (Barkeep), Patrick (W.), Michelle (French name.), and Patrick (H).

I love this photo. Its like what we do back home. But there would be a lot more groping back home. Just cause. And probably more females. Even if one is dressed as a female. He gave kisses all night, always reapplying lipstick and kissing some poor sucker on the cheek, leaving a bright pink lip mark. Hehe.
Notice the blue stockings and dress falling 'up'. Pretty damn sexy right? Nah, but he was cool. Is cool, still, maybe.

This is Patrick and Patrick. In no particular order XD.

I dont know who these people are. Check out that chicks red eyes. Flippin creepy. XD

Bluntly Put...

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.

Im in a rocking disoriented mood.

In the way that I can remember exactly,

what Ive eaten, and how much Ive slept

since friday.

I can tell you that neither are very much.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

Its not that Ive been starving myself.

Or making myself stay awake.

just taking a bit of food or a drink of water,

sends my stomache stumbling.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

And with the sleeping thing,

I didnt sleep at all Saturday,

Slept four and a half hours Sunday..

Slept I think 6 Monday,

And last night I woke up at 3am wide awake.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me

It used to get like this when someone,

wasnt telling me something that they should.

I could always tell.

It always physically affected me somehow.

Its not always someone who is close to me either.

Just someone who feels connected to me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

My physics teacher (who is also,

my volleyball coach),

asked me to the front of the class today,

at the beginning of class,

and talked to me about volleyball.

Then he asked me a question during class,

that no one knew the answer to,

and because I didnt know it,

made me and the girls beside me who also didnt know,

go up to the board and do all the examples.

Bastard.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I told Katie a week ago,

that I needed a glass of water,

before I jumped into the pool.

It was a metaphor, and I thought

of it on the spot. That was boss.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

This is my 183 post. But Im deleting one,

so its my 182.

Because it double printed my last one.

I finally transferred to the google way of blogger.

If I have to do the "labels for this post"

Imma write "random teenaged babbling"

Thats all I ever do.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

-fin-

Double Argh With Knobs Austrian Style?

If I told you it happened again would you listen?
Would you believe me?
Have you ever fully believed me?

So, we had faschings.
That was a total blast.
Its like, the whole city dressing up and then getting drunk.

But if I hear:

Einen Stern der Deinen Namen trägt
Hoch am Himmelszelt
Den schenk ich Dir heut Nacht
Einen Stern der Deinen Namen trägt
Alle Zeiten überlebt Und über unsere
Liebe wacht

Or:

Aber eins kann mir keiner, (eins kann mir keiner) (2x)
eins kann mir keiner, (eins kann mir keiner)
eins kann mir keiner nehmen und das ist die pure Lust am Leben!

IMMA SHOOT SOMEONE.

Because they got drunk. Then they sang it in the street. Then they sang it to me. And then they started changing other lyrics to fit me, and sang them.

Oh, So, btw... WITHDRAWALS GONE. Heh.

I think I left my halo in the overhead compartment of the plane to Copenhagen.

So, I was gunna like.. give the whole detailed version, (but I think I will just give the overview )which I will write somewhere and let it eventually get put up here (because you all love hearing about my life...XD) and then the few people who read this can go 'Omg Alicia you did what?! You?! And he did what?!'

But lets not get into that right now. I dont have the energy to be that specific. (Plus, no one is online to vent at and consequently bring up more memories of the night by it.)

So:
Alicia met a boy at a bar.
The first way they ever communicated was him asking a stupid question and alicia giving the finger.
Later they played fussball. (Like, with a table and shit.) on the same team.
A little girl was there (11) and when he hugged Alicia because they won, she burst laughing.
Then informed alicia that 'OMG HE LIKES YOU'
I was never like this at 11. A hug is a hug.
Then Alicia was dancing with her host moms friend.
And he cut in.
Alicia cant dance these funny austrian dances.
But he made her dance with him anyways.
(I learned later that my host sister was like 'yeah, sure, she can dance' when he asked her.)
Thankfully the little girl wasnt there. She woulda been on my case the rest of the night.
Then a man in a purple latex suit (sometime later) (btw, like 40.. )walked into the bar and grabbed my boob.
I just took his hand off and kept walking.
My host mom wanted me and my host sister (13) to go home, because she wanted to go into the city.
I said I would take care of my sister and we stayed there for a bit.
(Sidenote: We had been hanging out with two guys (the one I danced with) and for like.. 4 or so hours and whatnot in the fussball room (seperate room from the bar area, quiet.. ) both are ... Well, lets say both are older then Aaron. Almost. One is the same age.) And anywho, after my host mom left we went to the older (kay. he's 21) guys house and grabbed bacardi and jim beans. then we walked to my house.)
Then after that we sat outside for a bit (at this point the younger was kissing my neck. Ha.) then my host mom came home. And we stayed outside cause we didnt want her to see us (still being kissed.) then she went to her room to go to bed and we went upstairs to mine. (sidenote: after like two hours at the bar, the younger kept saying 'Im sleeping at your house or you are sleeping at mine tonight' to me. XD)
So then I unlocked my door, cause I had locked it earlier when we got home cause I didnt want him snooping around in it. and then we went out on my deck, (more kissing), my host sister and the boys smoking, then being hugged cause it was cold (and a convienent way for him to get closer so he could grab my ass XD)
Then going inside, and yeah, more kissing and whatnot...
Then him asking me to go to bed... and his friend laughing.
Then it was like ... 4 in the morning, and I was bored of him kissing me.. (und weiter aber das 'is detailed.' )
So I asked my host sister (who had moved to the bed , as all of us sleeping on the floor would be stupid.) if she was tired and she said no, so I asked her if she wanted to play cards.

I know, Im probably one of the only girls in the world that complains of withdrawals, has a boy kissing up on her, and would rather play cards cause he bores her.
Im so cool.

So then he asks me (and Im going to remember this for a long time) (and sorry linds, I can only say it in german) 'Willst du es nicht?'
To which I replied 'Na'
And his friend burst out laughing.

Oh, shit, I forgot, before this he was like, laying on me, (Erm, I was sitting with my knee's up, and he was lying against them.) and his friend (who is really nice, adorable.. funny. cut a ketchup bottle in half cause nothing would come out... o.0) was looking at pictures (didnt tell us that) on his camera (I swear he just kept taking them damnit.) so then the younger wants it dark (cause the cell had a really strong light) and he is all like 'shut off your damn phone' and then they like, argue, cause one wants to continue kissing up on me, and the other wants to look at photos. So finally the first one asks 'What the deuce are you doing anyways' something along those lines and the older replies 'Im looking at photos of tonight' I was just like 'Oh shit, what all does he have on his phone' in my head.

Anywho, after I said no, he climbed into bed with my host sister and started trying shit with her.
He is 19. She is 13. Thats a little young.
But whatever.

the sad thing is that now she likes him. and I think she thinks he likes her.
I dont think she understands the ''your just a piece of young ass' concept.

And now she is also ''OMG WE GOTTA GO THERE NEXT WEEKEND'
Which, I have no problem with. But she went all... 'we can go this weekend and this weekend and this weekend....'

Little overdone.

SONG:

Skip town. slow down
Push it to the east coast
Step down turn around
Push it to the west
Need less, use less
We're asking for too much I guess
Cause all we get is...

Dead disco Dead funk Dead rock and roll
Remodel Everything has been done
La la la la la la la la la la

Tits out, pants down
Overnight to London
Touch down, look around
Everyone's the same
World wide, air tight
No one's got a face left to blame

Dont need more, its just the chorus over and over again.

If anyone can dfind me the lyrics of 'This is for you' by Velvet, I would be happy.

You're a heavy hitter, but unlike the full-on alpha type, you don't care to play Boss Lady all the time. After all, with leadership comes a lot of -- sigh -- expectations, and you like your freedom too much to play that game. You're fine near, not at, the top at work, and find fulfillment in your personal life. You know the modern woman's secret: it is possible to have it all, just not all at once.

Or not?

We had fire in our eyes
In the beginning I
Never felt so alive
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't want to hear it anymore

I might be going to Ireland in April

I have to ask one of my friends,

to see if she will ask her homeroom teacher.

To see if I can go with them.

Cause its not my class.

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

We have a storm warning.

7 people dead.

Its 130-150km/h winds.

Its called an Orkana.

I think that means "Shit, we're doomed"

In some language.

We had time on our side

In the beginning we

We had nothing to hide

In the beginning you

You blame me but

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't want to hear it anymore

I might go visit Lucy or Maija,

for part of Easter break.

Its a long way off, I know,

but you gotta plan ahead.

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

One of my sisters is a stripper.

It doesnt phase me.

It doesnt matter to me.

She saves up her money and see's the world.

She's been to Ecuador, and Thailand.

She goes to the U.k. in March,

She's seen Panama and Peru,

Mauritius, Japan, United Arab Emerites,

and other parts of Canada.

You say that I didn't try

You say that I didn't try

You say that I didn't try

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

Vancouver Island is located off Canada's Pacific coast and is part of the Canadian province of British Columbia. The island is 460 km (285 miles) long and up to 80 km (50 miles) wide. The largest island on the western side of the Americas at 32,134 square kilometers (12,407 square miles), it is the world's 42nd largest island, Canada's 11th largest island and Canada's second highest populated island. The island is named in honour of George Vancouver, the British Royal Navy officer who explored the Pacific northwest coast between 1791 and 1794

So, I have to do this project on canada and where I come from and shit.
And I am at school, where I cant print things. This goes here for now.

Comprising ten provinces and three territories, Canada is a bilingual and multicultural country, with both English and French as official languages at the federal level

The name Canada comes from a word in the language of the St. Lawrence Iroquoians, canada, meaning "village" or "settlement"

Capital Ottawa

Prime Minister Stephen Harper

32.8 million people

Canada by far has more lakes than any other country in the world and has a large amount of the world's freshwater

Banknote peoples, from 5$ on:

Wilfrid Laurier, John A Macdonald, Queen Elizabeth II, William Lyon Mackenzie, King Robert Borden

Bathtub racing started in Nanaimo, British Columbia and involves the use of a bathub boat. The first races began with the "Nanaimo to Vancouver Great International World Championship Bathtub Race" in 1967.[1] The idea was conceived to showcase Nanaimo to the world.

Yeah

There are no guarantees in life
Not for the present,
Nor for the future.
All I know is That I'm here;
Don't know for how long.

So, I had this whole layout planned.

To Discuss, topics and all.

Then two days went by.

And Still I hadnt posted.

I realised that it isnt so important anymore.

I realised I have changed.

I love the way

You live so intensely

Enjoy every minute of life

With space to swing

Your arms around

Laughing loudly

I was going to write about how this girl,

She used to bug me a lot, when I first

Changed classes, Always calling my name,

Trying to get me to look at her.

So she could laugh.

I ignored her, and it subsided.

It didnt end mind you.

Unlike me

Unlike me

Do you think I'm strange?

Unlike you

Unlike you

I am not pretending

Then yesterday she needed my help.

She needed a good mark in english.

Im not one to be mean,

So I helped her.

No questions asked, no snide remarks,

just correcting her sentence structure.

There is no time,

There is no time,

There is no time,

Time doesn't really exist.

Today she came up to me.

We just talked.

It seemed normal.

Somehow twistedly normal.

The past, the present,

And the future,

Are all side by side,

Hand in hand.

You move and change,

Yet you go nowhere:

Everything stays the same.

My closest friend here,

Would be either Magdalena

Melanie, Or Julia.

Julia is 15, the other two 14.

I play Volleyball with the

younsters. But Melanie,

She broke her finger.

You stare at me,

And ask me questions,

Makes me nervous,

This room it keeps a constant tone

While I'm on a roller coaster

I'm already an oldbie here,

We have newbies from Aussie Land.

I guess I will meet them in March.

I am 17 in 6 months and 13 days.

In 7 months, or just over,

I am no longer an Outbound,

But a Rebound, a Rotex kid.

Unlike me

Unlike me

Do you think I'm strange

Unlike you

Unlike you

I am not pretending

I have to do a Rotary Project.

About what we do in my city.

There was no information,

On the website.

I find that idiotic.

So I emailed the president of the Club.

Asking for information.

There is no time

There is no time

There is no time

Time doesn't really exist

I love this song.

My host sister came in,

And asked what it was.

Then said it was horrible.

And left.

I love my host sister.

She's hilarious.

Random Useless Update

...Number ... -insertimpossiblyhighnumberhere-

So, I can crack walnuts with my bare hands. That makes me cool right? Its a nifty talent.
I only obtained the information that I obtain this talent when I could not seem to obtain a nutcracker.

Ha. obtain.

Other then that, Ive been complaining about this homework assignment I have to do for the past.. two weeks to basically anyone that will listen. Im actually going to finish it in the morning cause I got off my lazy arse and actually did most of the damn thing.
So, the main character who is really annoying and always blowing up unrealistically (the thing was written in the 50's, the guy mussttaa been livin in the 70's a little early. If you understand that, raise your left hand.)

Anywho, he makes some sense after he like, chills down. Here (example.):

The heaviest strongest creatures in the world seem to be the lonliest. Like the old bear, following his own breath in the dark forest. There's no warm pack, no herd to comfort him. That voice that cries out doesnt have to be a weaklings does it?

This would be after he tells his wife (when she is pregnant, he just didnt know it yet) that he wishes that something cruel would happen to her, like having a baby fully formed in her, and it dying in her.. (which happens.) And then starts screwing around on her while she is recovering at her parents house (she had been gone for three months..) with her best friend. Then she randomly walks into the house and he tells his new beau that 'her friend is here' . Well, then the new beau decides that she is going to flee to London and then when she is gone they (the husband and wife) start talkig and this is some of the guilt trip he lays on her. See, he is an annoying prick.

Nother.... exerpt? Is that right?

You've got to be really brawny to have that kind of strenghth - the strength to relax... (Pointless bit about how she is a big fake) In order to relax, you've first got to sweat your guts out...

doesnt sound very relaxing does it?

Alicia is bored... And tireeed... And realized its only 20 weeks till she is flying back home. Ouch.

This is sort of aggravating. In that fun realizing your going bonkers way. They say everybody has a lookalike.

I think that everyone I know back home, yeah, all their lookalikes live here. or sound a likes.

Like, I just heard Danny in the hall. and Allyn has like.. 40 lookalikes. Its the fad, minus the lip piercing. Ive also seen Adam and Leigh and Hrenyk and other people. There is too many to remember them all. Its just like 'whoa, fuck, I know you. wait, wait a minute, no, no I dont.'

Which is odd, but it makes you go bonkers.

They said that once you start dreaming with your friends speaking german, that nothing is the same after.

I still dream with you guys speaking english. But I dont, not all the time. Or I just dont speak. That is becoming popular, me not speaking. I really think I will become a mute for a while. One of these days.

rambleeeeee

Please no more california songs.
Please no more california songs.
Please no more california songs.

I love his voice.

Please no more california songs.
And fuck New York Toooooooo.

I swear too much. Bad Alicia.
Nasty habit.
At least I dont bite my nails.

I like pasta. With sauce. Or without.
Cooked dough.

Sooo

Yeah How goes?

Little bit strange to be sitting here in austria. Well, just to be sitting here. Its like, a feeling.

Did you know (you being the invisible audience that I have magically captured the interest of, though after what, two months? of not posting, I can see the floating programs and that rickety chair in the corner with the loose spring still slightly wobbling.) That I have almost died three times?

Ones I almost choked to death, once I almost burned to death and another ... I think I almost bled to death but Im not sure, I will have to check with my mother.

Ive been in the hospital quite a bit. For breaking things or swallowing things or puking too much, or being there for my mom when her ex convinced her she was crazy, or when he had broken her arm again, or pushed her down the stairs, or punched her. Or, when she decided that she was too fat and starved herself until under 100 pounds. That was his fault to. He had an idea of her that she had to fit herself in.

Dont know why Im writing this. Writing for the sake of writing I guess.

One day I started writing a story, with no plan or anything. Now that story is over 30 pages. I just kept writing. It was just after I had moved host families but was still in the same class with my host sister.

Usually with stories I get stuck and give up after 3 pages. so hopefully this one will be published, and I will be critized like that kid who wrote aragon. I havent even read the stupid book. But I knw lots of people dont like it, and dont like him for getting it published. Its not his fault his parents owned a publishing company, give the kid a break, he worked hard.

Alicia is in an unconcentrated mood.

She bought a candle at the 75 cent shop, it smells like apple, but not when its burning. It has burned quickly too.

Aaron is sending alicia songs. One of them had cats meowing. That was a little komisch.

They cook mashed potatoes with nutmeg here. muskatnuss. It tastes a little different, but its good. They did that in my last host family as well. But they made insta-potatoes. Which tasted like crap.

Cailin has gone back to Australia, along with Ellie. I have to go and see them within 5 years. That sounds sort of realistic right? 5 years to get enough money to go? But then again I have 2 years of highschool, one year of college and two years of university in that span. I dont think I will have enough money. Ill make it work eventually.

I had a nap today. I remember being young, but I dont remember taking naps. Then I remember being a bit older, and being tired, and my mom telling me to take a nap, and me informing her that I cant sleep in the daytime.

Thats seemed to change since I have got to Austria. I think its because you are genuinly tired. That isnt spelt right. genuinely. There. I think. Maybe.

I just noticed that I threw my shirt on inside out. No matter, my host brother always says that. I didnt go to school in this shirt, and my shirt was the right way out at school, and no one really cares here at home what I am wearing.

I should post more often here.
But by the time I write in my written journal, post on my family blog (so they will stop bugging me) and try and think of something cool to say here, I have lost all wish to post at all.

I miss being able to write for days, about everything, about anything.

I miss being able to write poetry.
You'd think I would be able to more then ever, with all these 'experiences' and things, but my minds a total blank.

Still, sucks to be you.

'nother song

Just trust my lust its like a high school crush,
sometimes akward much to offer turquoise aqua
Mad Child talkn’ nice,cherry pepsi cola ice
face her lips control my life,eyes look beautiful tonight
I’ll get through to you so fun,

One heart some of them break some of them broke mine time won’t wait,
fatal attraction loss of breath major distraction lots of stress,
we differant, you discovered me,
made me unselfish help me understand why I left the girls helpless,
scorpio evil private nature
I’ll let you inside no signs of danger

(Jakalope)
I start to press my skin to you I'm craving it
I'm feeling you
Will you relieve me fast
Feast your eyes on my display
Take control
Fall over me
Cover me in ecstasy
Let me ride to heaven
Let me feel the swelling
Oh let me concentrate
I can feel it
When I taste life and when
I breathe
Crawling inside of me baby
Oh oh oh

(Mad Child)
I said run its no fun to be my only one cause,
I’m mean when I drink im like a loaded gun,
you don’t want me to buy you diamond and pony,
make me stay at home make you feel like you own me,
don’t pat my back that’s phony im not
Mr. Nice Guy truth hurts cuts like a knife right,
runnin for your life that’s my final announcement or you can hang around and I can pay for counclin

Control freak speak in dialect twist and contort bend back that's perfect,
hold on slow song pump the speaker box, body language slang and
I could read your thoughts, face of an angel don’t make this painful,
beautiful exchange the night is graceful, wait til the sun come up then repeat it,
Prev make you curious I know you can feel it

etc.

Guess I better post in this to keep my archives in order and whatnot.
I have an austrian blog for family and whatnot, this one will still remain for things not suitable for widespread family and friend knowledge.

I have this song (to be posted) stuck in my head, so much so that I grabbed my ipod, took the dog and went for a walk in the fields so I could belt it out without anyone hearing me. I woulda dunnit in the house, but Benedikt was watching television.

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby

Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life

I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see that this world is a beautiful accident, turbulent succulent opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh my self to sleep
It's my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
Is it enough?Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.oh
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

I like it, I like it, I like it.
Really I do.

Aaaaaarrrroooonnn. I need two songs from you. As I am desperately craving to listen to them.
One of them is called Believe, I think, and the other is that Susie Q, or Stacie or whatnot.

But, I cant get them from you until you are online. Go online.

Great, Now I'm sad.

So, all was going good today.
Saw my close friends, said goodbye.
Hung out at the mall, saw Norm.

Oh, yeah, Norm: Awesome guy. Friend. Man guy, guy, man, yeah... (REFERENCE ALERT)

Anywho, then I get home, we check messages (phone..)
And I have two messages from Austria.
TWO.
One from my host sister I believe, and one from my mom.
So, that made me all happy.
So I email her, cause she needed information.
Her being the mum.

And my mom's like "hey lets call"
Well, she said she was going to have a bath first.
So I'm all like, k.
ANYWHO.
I get into a pretty good conversation with friends, that I'm going to miss terribly.
Then the phone number doesnt' work, so she takes over the computer for almost an hour looking up ways (with no success) on how to call there.
When she could of just used the operator.
But apparently I wasn't allowed to.

So, then I FINALLY get back online, and everyone's gone.
And one of the conversations was one of those deep sorta ones.

So now I'm sad.

Other then that, I leave tomorrow night for Vancouver.
Then Friday I'm on the plane(s).

I got my hair did too.
Don't think I've mentioned that here.
It's red/brown with blonde highlights.
Ya, I know, I went blonde.
Please don't hit me too much.

Today, I got sat on.
By a Logan.
Fucking Hoser.
Sheesh he makes me uncomfortable.

I also had a bum come up to me and mumble at me for a good 45 minutes.
I just sorta nodded my head, and tried to understand him.
I understood the "Do you have a smoke" part, but the rest was...
a little over a murmur.

Now I just want to crawl into a corner with a big thick blanket and sorta go numb.

Sheesh I hate these feelings.

Girl, put your records on

Tell me your favourite song...etc.

Good song.

Anywho, So, I guess I haven't really updated in a while.

I fly to Klagenfurt Austria. I live in Villach, Austria.

I have a "boyfriend". His name is Trevor.

So, in thinking about this, I realize I've only ever dated minorities.
Which isn't a bad thing at all.

See, it breaks down like this:

First "boyfriend" - Korean
Second " " - Black (African american if you want to be "politically correct" (What a load of bull))
Third - Native (Native american, politically correctness...)

Oi, the third one be Trevor.

So yeah, now that's a good enough update right?

My birthday is on the 30th. Of this month.

Logans was today. His mother thought it awfully considerate that I remembered.
I didn't know that most people forgot things related to friends.
Then again, we're on the fritz. Though she doesn't know that.
That I know of.

It's impossible to hate Doug French. Though, occasionally you can hate Keegan. Which, are one in the same.

I haven't been writing lately. Except pages of questions to ask rotary people and contact information.

My mom's finally realizing that I'm leaving, and it's for a whole year, and she can't sleep properly.

I'm dead tired too, and as well, can't sleep.

I still miss talking to Aaron.

Paperage

Sooo.

I've been in the paper 4 times since last year.

4.

That's more then some people are in it in a lifetime.

Go me.

But not really. Well, yeah, go me.

I still have more paperwork for Austria to go, bu-ut, they just keep finding more and it's getting really frustrating because they keep changing their minds about which ones I need to do and whatnot. Also, I have to send it all to a translator and get it notarized but I can't because apparently the organization (thomas Cook Travel) Screwed up AGAIN.

Gr.

p.s. I am supposed to leave August 11th for Klagenfurt, Austria.

G

+)

There's a beauty in the breakdown
A method to the madness
Watch as she puts on her wedding gown
Did you see her sadness?

A future locked in happiness
What more could she want
But this future is caged, and lacks finesse
She's nothing more then a beauty to flaunt.

Her hero took of his mask,
Became the devil of her dreams
Showed his self at last
Too late in the silence she screams.

Soo:
-Work was busy today.
-My knee hurts like whoa mans.
-Got a raise at work, start full time on tuesday sweet deal eh?
-Have family over till sunday.
-Did I mention my knee hurts?
-Got some Frou Frou stuck in my head.
-I'm ok with that.
-My mp3 player's busted.
-Not ok with that.
-I'm missing people like crazy
-And other's not so much.
-I'll be in the paper Saturday.
-I'm buying new shoes tomorrow.
-Still need to buy a camera.
-Apparently, I'm impressing everyone around me lately.
-Someone at work asked me what planet I was from today.
-Guess it's evident I don't really belong here.

Oh, right, this still exists.

So, lately I've been kinda quasi-busy.
But not really.
(Psst. Aaron, Korey, Cody, Linds, I miss actually talking to you.)

Past random coupla days:

Tuesday: Went to the movies with Cass and Vanessa.
They = drunk/stoned.
Entertainment value = ***** (Five stars.)
Then: Hung out with Trevor, Cass, Vanessa, Cat, Desiree, Mike, Jake 1, Jake 2, Bev, And (eww.) April.
Then: Trevor asked me to kiss him. Pfft, no, I'm fine thanks. (Though, the boy is Fine.)
Bu-ut, fine or not, he was stoned. Totally ripped.
To the point where he didn't remember what happened tuesday when we talked wednesday.

Yeah, then I worked around home wednesday.
Then, Thursday I worked at my job.
Then Cass came over.
We were up almost all night (She was like, sick.)
Then we woke up at 6:15 today, because we had to open the store with my mom.
Then we rode the busses and walked in the malls all day.
Then we went to the beach.
Laughed at people who think they can play soccer.
Yeah.....

Oh, and a little adorable cat has been following me and Cass around for two days while we're at the beach and the school, and today it attacked a dog out of the blue.

Just walked up to it and it's owner and jumped at its' face.
0.o Poor puppy.

Other then that, Monday, a reporter is coming to my house and doing a full article about me for the paper.

And last wednesday night I had to go to the legion to pic up a 1500 dollar bursary they gave me.

Oh, and I'm having a mini family reunion on the thirtieth of this month.

'Nuff of an update?

Something I wrote oh so long ago.

I'm one of the tallest people in my "group" of friends. Except for the boys, almost all the boys are taller.
I'm messed up in that whole "relationship" thing. I just am.
I'm going to be an exchange student next school year, Austria folks.
I'm random, because I like being so. I choose songs by using numbers parrallel to the first letter in the name listed. Then make friends randomly choose when I don't know what to listen to.

Accents are ultimately the coolest thing on the earth. effin' orgasmic. I assure you, it's a girl thing. But not all accents mind you. Just british, spanish, quebecquois, and .. austrailian.
Dying my hair is becoming a habit. But I think I've settled on a colour. I like it.
I'm a klutz, and clumsy, or whatever else fits into that category.I fall up stairs, scrape my knees on invisible objects, find random scars, and slam fingers into doors repeatedly. Absent minded about limbs.
My mind moves too fast for my functions. I'm not able to type all I want to type fast enough, which makes me forget half of it.
If my mind gets bored, it starts day dreaming, whether I want it to or not.
I've had my webcam for christmas and just found out how to take pictures today.
I talk to my cats, and they talk back.
I ask forgiveness from walls and other such non living things when I run into them. Or I tell them off.
I'm really into photography, and architecture, and medicine, and psychology.
I figure if I study psychology long enough, I'll have no problem spelling all words with "psychsdhjjkdfh" in them. Because I have serious problems.
Apparently, I'm caramilk, and I have that whole "Quit with the bullshit" attitude. Go me.
I chicken out of things I shouldn't do that don't cause harm, and don't back down from things I should.
I'm contemplating becoming mute.
Which means I'd have to quit both choir and Jazz choir, but what's a few credits?
I'd be all like that kid a couple years back that just corresponded with emails, even to his parents.
I've been compared to Superman, and Aaron is unknowingly Spiderman. I informed him.
I like Aarons collar, a lot, it owns mine. But hey, I'll get it from him one day.
And apparently I have no friends that live close to me, or at least, no friends that feel like being friends at the current moment.
Anywho, I don't know what else to say other then... Update soon?

Oh my. Oh my oh my oh my...

There was a large amount of amazingly adorable guys at my work today.
They just kept appearing.
It was like ... "OH WOW" x3.
Cause three of them stood out.

The Boyz (Heck yes):

Le Quebecquois:
-Around... late 20's?
-French accent. Well, quebecquois accent. Even better, trust me.
-Light brown hair, energetic blue eyes.
-One of those smiles that just forces you to smile.
-Hooooooootttttttttt
-And, amazingly intelligent!

Car tinker-er:
-Around... early 20's?
-No accent.
-Dark brown hair, dark eyes.
-Little bit rough looking
-Nice smile
-Smart
-Totally adorable.

Max:
-Oh wow oh wow oh wow.
-He's 19
-And a twin.
-Smart, shy-ish
-Works for his mom
-Middle brown ish hair.
-Beautiful eyes.
-Oh wow oh wow oh wow.

So yeah, Now, if Marshall had come in, I would of like... died of over exposure of adorable boys.

It goes like this, on a list of the four, excluding everyone else in the world.

Marshall
Max
Le Quebecquois
Car tinker-er

Oh wow oh wow oh wow.

Aww damn, now I wanna see marshall again.

Bu-ut, I talked to all three boys that came in today, cause I had to, and Oooh it was sooo fun.

Le quebecquois smiled at me and like, winked, and I almost melted.
Max has the most shy-est smile. Oh wow oh wow oh wow.
Yeah, so, ignoring the fact that they're all just a *bit* too old for me, I'm still allowed to melt.
So there.

Oh wow oh wow oh wow. <3

Such a lonely day

And it’s mine

The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day

Should be banned

It’s a day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day

Shouldn’t exist

It's a day that I’ll never miss

Such a lonely day

And it’s mine

The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go,I wanna go with you

And if you die,I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day

And it’s mine

It’s a day that I’m glad I survived

It is such a crappy day today. Well, it is and it isn't. The prominent memories of today are bad. But hey, it's raining (<33).

Doppleganger

You know what. Aaron has a doppleganger. I didn't say it. Bu-ut, I knew it.
Huzzah, his name is Ty.
But they're very different in some ways.
Yay for differences.

Anyways, today has been a shitty day.
Alicia is sore all over. And sick feeling, and wants to sleep but is not tired.
Damn.

Double Argh With Knobs - The next installment

HO SNAP NO YOU DIDN'T. DON'T YOU DARE READ THIS TILL YOU'VE READ ALL THE OTHER ONES BIZNATCHES. ALL THE OTHER ONES BEFORE THAT IS. DON'T YOU JUST LOVE MY CAPS LOCK?

Anyways.... On with the show mayhaps?

Emma: oh my! Now let me do my work....

Kara: So you think you are pretty deep in a hole eh? Well let me tell you something, so far you are only at the level of sand box shovel.

Alicia: Oh, you wait. To continue...
So I push him back, like, not hard or anything, but still enough to get him off of me, still wondering what the hell is going on. So then I get off of the driftwood and walk along the beach to this little island thing (it's an island when the tide goes up) so I go and sit on a rock there, and he sits beside me, and we're facing the ocean but we were on the back side ish of the island so no one on the mainland could see us and we were sitting there talking and I was poking his knee, cause that's what I do, poke people. So then he puts his arm around me and like, pulls me closer to his chest, and I'm like "Whatever" in my head, cause whatever. And his chin is resting on my head, which was odd. So then I stand up cause I'm uncomfortable (not laying on him, he's comfy, but uncomfortable about the situation) and bored. anyways, so I stand up, and I'm facing him and he pulled me on top of him. Soz, I like grabbed the rock so I wouldn't fall on him, but he pulled me anyways.

Kay breaktime again.

Emma: Ho shit. I'm speechless. (a/n that's a hard accomplishment to accomplish, leaving her speechless.)

Kara: Alright you're up to a large garden shovel. Hmmm, maybe you should of hit him with one?!

Alicia: So then I'm all "nooo" all whiny like, and he's like "whaaatt" and I'm like "What are you? Stunned?" in my head, but I didn't say it outloud cause I was still I guess in shock of what the hell he was trying to accomplish. So I stand up again and we were talking about biting and how I bit korey and one day and how it made korey all "hot n' bothered" so we were talking about that, and I was like "See, you bite there" and pointed to a spot on his shoulder cause he had a sweater on. and he like, pulled his sweater so the skin was exposed and he's all "here, bite me" and I'm all "uh... uh... can't. It's supposed to be a suprise, you know...Stealth!" so then he stands up, and I go to back up, and almost fall off the edge (woulda fell into rocks, then water) so he like pulls me close and nuzzles into my neck. (uuuueeerrrr)

Sidenote: He found out that if he pokes my side, I arch my back (to like, try to escape said poke) so he would poke me so I would arch into him and yeah, I'd arch, he'd slip his arms around my lower back and pull me closer.

'Nother break for commenting again.

Emma: *madface* Oh my. Speechless once more. How's the sandbox, Kara?

Kara: Ok, you have reached showel level! congrats! Hehehe your life sucks you man-whore magnet! Hehehehe!
"Oh, I am sorry, my friends told me to use cheap pickup lines on you (seductive look) are they working?" Heheheh! "If I was a space ship I'd land on your planet!"


There, the next installment.

Do It The Metric Way

Not as in the Metric system, but as in Metric, the band.
as in I'm going to be posting random pieces of their lyrics,
from various songs,
The ones that mean something to me, that I like
as in the ones with a deeper hidden meaning
because everything has a deeper hidden meaning,
Or at least it does with me.
I speculate too much.
Cody says I overanalyze. I say shut up.

:

Nobody knows which street to take
He took the easy way
What was the easy way?

I'm sick, you're tired, let's dance

Cold as numbers but let's dance

As though it were easy for you to lead me

I could be passive gracefully

Dizzy when we talk so fast

Fields of numbers streaming past

Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost,

Where is the love?

Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost,

Who here is in line for a raise?

Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost,

Where is the love?

Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost,

Who put these bodies between us?

(P.S. These are not from the same song, or go together, or anything like that.)

We used to leave the blue lights on and there was a beat

Ever since you have been gone it's all caffeine-free

Faux punk fatigues

Said it all before

They try to kick it, their feet fall asleep

Get no harm done no

None of them want to fight me

Combat baby come back baby

Fight off the lethargy

Don't go quietly

Combat baby

Said you would never give up easy

Combat baby come back

How I miss your ranting

Do you miss my all time lows

Need less, use less

We're asking for too much I guess

Cause all we get is...

Dead disco

Dead funk

Dead rock and roll

I saw your face looked down tonight

I only hope that you're alright

I know you think its always you

Need some time alone, need some time alone

After tonight, another day

A chance to feel a different way

The sun is slowly changing sides

Still, sorrow in your eyes

Sorrow in your eyes

The obvious door opens nothing

Gave them our reactions, our explosions, all that was ours

For graphs of passion and charts of stars

Only know what I'm told

Fast asleep daydreaming

Start to push, break your own glass ceiling

Can't count, can't catch the pieces falling

How am I gonna know you're letting me down

You're gonna lose your arms, amputate plasticine

There's no knight in silver armor shining

How will you wear your leisure

Zipper back and front

On the fence together

Weekends in leather

That's entertainment

When the cameras roll

Can you face the pavement

For a happy dog and pony show

Everybody loves you baby

Of course they do

Leave the basement life

And not the landlord's wife.

Though we both see it coming

We don't run.

Let the silence settle in our bones.

You leave your eyes there for me to memorize.

I can see you happy in the shadows I despise.

Vertabrae by vertebrae

Roll your way out of a coma

Look up, the nurse is smiling

What luck, the nurse is me

Your old body is dead

Your body's dead, you're a word instead

In my sleep I repeat it

It's a good story

Her mouth is full of questions

Take your own meanings out of this, leave mine alone.

Double Argh With Knobs. II

READ THIS ONLY AFTER YOU HAVE READ DOUBLE ARGH WITH KNOBS ONE.
OR YOU'LL BE ALL CONFUSED
AND BE ALL "WELL FUCK THAT"
KAY THANKS.

Cont'd.

Emma: I can be graceful. 7.5

Kara: Well I am not a prostitute, geisha slut or whore and I am rated sexy and a half.

Alicia: I think not, slut.

Emma: If Kara's sexy and a half, I'm totally sexy plus three-quarters.

April 25/ 2006.

Alicia: we should write in romaji.

Emma: Lame.

Kara: Silly, Silly, Silly!

Alicia: It'd be a major time waster.

MAY 8th 2006! (Aaawww fuck here we go.)

Alicia: Alright, so, a story for y'all.

Kay, so last week, Logan's all "Hey, I shottie you for next sunday" and I'm all like " uh, sure" so he comes over yesterday and we go to the beach and we're like walking around the beach, and we sit down and watch this little kid (around 2 maybe?) fall into the ocean. Poor little wet kid. anyways we walk to another part of the beach, and he keeps hugging me and I'm all "yeah, whatever, he's just being more affectionate then usual" in my head (this is when lights should of gone off, the red ones) so anyways, we go down this path, where it's a cliff on either side, and a path about three feet wide in the middle, leading to a 6 foot wide path that leads to an island that's only and island when it's high tide (the path gets covered) so, we sit on this piece of driftwood, about 3-4 feet high and he puts his arm around me, which I squirmed out of. (Squirming out of means I took it with my hand, took it off of me, and placed it where it should of gone, which is on the log. but that didn't work, cause it turned into us holding hands, which I slid out of.) so then he stands up and we're talking, and I stand up and go "hey, look, I'm taller then you" because the rocks made me taller, so he softly like, pushed me back into sitting on the piece of driftwood. Then I noticed something in his hair, so I stood up to take it out, and he like, sat me down again, thinking I was going to talk about our height again, but I wasn't. So frustrated that I wouldn't be able to stand any time soon, and not caring enough to like, push him out of the way, and with the piece of driftwood in his hair (I had been throwing things at him earlier) I pulled him closer, took it out, and went to push him back into a far enough distance that I was comfortable with. That didn't happen. He just sorta stayed.

Double Argh With Knobs.

Cody, why the fuck couldn't you have saved me?

Eh, all's fair in the manwhore business I guess.

Emma and Alicia and Corey and Brooke and Aly and Kara all agree that Alicia is screwed.

This happened to Aly to, but apparently (says her) happened to me like, 10 times worse.
And Cass, can't stop laughing.

So, for your further enjoyment at my expense ... The Book, III.
Yeah, we started (I started) another one. Yay for me.
This is going to go slow, till I get to the topic I was rambling on about up more.

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Alicia: The third book! Really wish I'd saved the other two, and coulda published them and made a lot of money. Rule, to refresh, is must write in pen.

Emma: Definately. The book must be kept private!!!

Kara: Ok! I get it! I got it! Good!

Alicia: What, you planning on spilling something this year Emma?

Emma: No, but you might spill something for me. -_-

Kara: Alicia is planning to stab me with a dull pencil crayon! Help me!

Alicia: I said crayon! not pencil crayon. What am I spilling about you em? other then your undying love for Maltee?

Emma: If you're going to say that, you could at least spell his name right. M-U-L-T-E. There. Wait, I'm wrong. T_T

Kara: Well then... now that we have gotten that out of the way, what else is new?

Alicia: It's Malte, he said so. I like his writing.

Emma: Me too. Very...crisp. Foreign kids always write so neatly.

Kara: I think you guys need to get a life. ( I know... I know that does not mean much coming from me.)

Alicia: Rouven didn't have neat writing. He was from germany. But yeah, crisp, and bold and bare and sparse, very, .... distinctive writing.

Emma: Yep. Anyways, I think Kara's right Alicia we need to get a life. I mean for god's sake, we're talking about the way some guy writes!

Kara: Thank you voice of reason!

Alicia: Life? Not plural? So we're going to share it? I SHOTTIE IT ON THE WEEKENDS.

Emma: Lolz, Alicia, you're funny. No, we need to each get a life.

Kara: I hear that there is a 2 for 1 deal at the dollar store! We can all get a life and new personalities! Only $1.99!

Alicia: Kay, you get me one I like, and I'll blame it on you when my friends are all "Wtf happened?"

Emma: I'll just be like "wut"

Kara: Don't be ridiculous! I got my personality from the Dollar Store. And look at me! I'm great!

Alicia: LAME -_-

Emma: Agreed ;-_-

Kara: Hey! Shut up! I am cool .... ish.

Alicia: You just keep telling yourself that luv.

Emma: My mommy says I'm special T_T

Kara: Don't call me luv! or any other stupid pet names you can think of. you are just jealous of my coolness! =P

Alicia: My mommy says you're special too Em. And I'll call you whatever I like puddin' head. (a/n pudding head is an insult.)

Emma: Hey! That's my name for Kara!

Kara: Why do I have all these pet names?! (or insults whichever you prefer)

Alicia: It was an unsult. and fine, I'll call her puddin' brain, happy now?

Emma: Kay fine.

Kara: I hate you all!

Alicia: Aww but we love you.

Emma: Don't hate us Kara!

Kara: well I guess I don't hate you, just strongly dislike.

Alicia: Alright, fine. I had sushi for lunch <3 But I am not becoming a japanese prostitute Kara!

Emma: I think you should Alicia, you'd be good at it.

Kara:What about you emma? aren't you down with that?

Alicia: How would I be good at being graceful and talented? you expect so much!

Emma: A prostitute Alicia, not a geisha. Down with what kara?

Kara: Down with your mother? maybe, I don't know. So emma is a geisha? well if emma was a geisha I'd rate her a 7.

Alicia: Nah, she's a klutz. 6.5 NO PROSTITUTION FOR ALICIA