You're a heavy hitter, but unlike the full-on alpha type, you don't care to play Boss Lady all the time. After all, with leadership comes a lot of -- sigh -- expectations, and you like your freedom too much to play that game. You're fine near, not at, the top at work, and find fulfillment in your personal life. You know the modern woman's secret: it is possible to have it all, just not all at once.

Or not?

We had fire in our eyes
In the beginning I
Never felt so alive
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't want to hear it anymore

I might be going to Ireland in April

I have to ask one of my friends,

to see if she will ask her homeroom teacher.

To see if I can go with them.

Cause its not my class.

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

We have a storm warning.

7 people dead.

Its 130-150km/h winds.

Its called an Orkana.

I think that means "Shit, we're doomed"

In some language.

We had time on our side

In the beginning we

We had nothing to hide

In the beginning you

You blame me but

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't want to hear it anymore

I might go visit Lucy or Maija,

for part of Easter break.

Its a long way off, I know,

but you gotta plan ahead.

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

One of my sisters is a stripper.

It doesnt phase me.

It doesnt matter to me.

She saves up her money and see's the world.

She's been to Ecuador, and Thailand.

She goes to the U.k. in March,

She's seen Panama and Peru,

Mauritius, Japan, United Arab Emerites,

and other parts of Canada.

You say that I didn't try

You say that I didn't try

You say that I didn't try

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

Vancouver Island is located off Canada's Pacific coast and is part of the Canadian province of British Columbia. The island is 460 km (285 miles) long and up to 80 km (50 miles) wide. The largest island on the western side of the Americas at 32,134 square kilometers (12,407 square miles), it is the world's 42nd largest island, Canada's 11th largest island and Canada's second highest populated island. The island is named in honour of George Vancouver, the British Royal Navy officer who explored the Pacific northwest coast between 1791 and 1794

So, I have to do this project on canada and where I come from and shit.
And I am at school, where I cant print things. This goes here for now.

Comprising ten provinces and three territories, Canada is a bilingual and multicultural country, with both English and French as official languages at the federal level

The name Canada comes from a word in the language of the St. Lawrence Iroquoians, canada, meaning "village" or "settlement"

Capital Ottawa

Prime Minister Stephen Harper

32.8 million people

Canada by far has more lakes than any other country in the world and has a large amount of the world's freshwater

Banknote peoples, from 5$ on:

Wilfrid Laurier, John A Macdonald, Queen Elizabeth II, William Lyon Mackenzie, King Robert Borden

Bathtub racing started in Nanaimo, British Columbia and involves the use of a bathub boat. The first races began with the "Nanaimo to Vancouver Great International World Championship Bathtub Race" in 1967.[1] The idea was conceived to showcase Nanaimo to the world.

Yeah

There are no guarantees in life
Not for the present,
Nor for the future.
All I know is That I'm here;
Don't know for how long.

So, I had this whole layout planned.

To Discuss, topics and all.

Then two days went by.

And Still I hadnt posted.

I realised that it isnt so important anymore.

I realised I have changed.

I love the way

You live so intensely

Enjoy every minute of life

With space to swing

Your arms around

Laughing loudly

I was going to write about how this girl,

She used to bug me a lot, when I first

Changed classes, Always calling my name,

Trying to get me to look at her.

So she could laugh.

I ignored her, and it subsided.

It didnt end mind you.

Unlike me

Unlike me

Do you think I'm strange?

Unlike you

Unlike you

I am not pretending

Then yesterday she needed my help.

She needed a good mark in english.

Im not one to be mean,

So I helped her.

No questions asked, no snide remarks,

just correcting her sentence structure.

There is no time,

There is no time,

There is no time,

Time doesn't really exist.

Today she came up to me.

We just talked.

It seemed normal.

Somehow twistedly normal.

The past, the present,

And the future,

Are all side by side,

Hand in hand.

You move and change,

Yet you go nowhere:

Everything stays the same.

My closest friend here,

Would be either Magdalena

Melanie, Or Julia.

Julia is 15, the other two 14.

I play Volleyball with the

younsters. But Melanie,

She broke her finger.

You stare at me,

And ask me questions,

Makes me nervous,

This room it keeps a constant tone

While I'm on a roller coaster

I'm already an oldbie here,

We have newbies from Aussie Land.

I guess I will meet them in March.

I am 17 in 6 months and 13 days.

In 7 months, or just over,

I am no longer an Outbound,

But a Rebound, a Rotex kid.

Unlike me

Unlike me

Do you think I'm strange

Unlike you

Unlike you

I am not pretending

I have to do a Rotary Project.

About what we do in my city.

There was no information,

On the website.

I find that idiotic.

So I emailed the president of the Club.

Asking for information.

There is no time

There is no time

There is no time

Time doesn't really exist

I love this song.

My host sister came in,

And asked what it was.

Then said it was horrible.

And left.

I love my host sister.

She's hilarious.

Random Useless Update

...Number ... -insertimpossiblyhighnumberhere-

So, I can crack walnuts with my bare hands. That makes me cool right? Its a nifty talent.
I only obtained the information that I obtain this talent when I could not seem to obtain a nutcracker.

Ha. obtain.

Other then that, Ive been complaining about this homework assignment I have to do for the past.. two weeks to basically anyone that will listen. Im actually going to finish it in the morning cause I got off my lazy arse and actually did most of the damn thing.
So, the main character who is really annoying and always blowing up unrealistically (the thing was written in the 50's, the guy mussttaa been livin in the 70's a little early. If you understand that, raise your left hand.)

Anywho, he makes some sense after he like, chills down. Here (example.):

The heaviest strongest creatures in the world seem to be the lonliest. Like the old bear, following his own breath in the dark forest. There's no warm pack, no herd to comfort him. That voice that cries out doesnt have to be a weaklings does it?

This would be after he tells his wife (when she is pregnant, he just didnt know it yet) that he wishes that something cruel would happen to her, like having a baby fully formed in her, and it dying in her.. (which happens.) And then starts screwing around on her while she is recovering at her parents house (she had been gone for three months..) with her best friend. Then she randomly walks into the house and he tells his new beau that 'her friend is here' . Well, then the new beau decides that she is going to flee to London and then when she is gone they (the husband and wife) start talkig and this is some of the guilt trip he lays on her. See, he is an annoying prick.

Nother.... exerpt? Is that right?

You've got to be really brawny to have that kind of strenghth - the strength to relax... (Pointless bit about how she is a big fake) In order to relax, you've first got to sweat your guts out...

doesnt sound very relaxing does it?

Alicia is bored... And tireeed... And realized its only 20 weeks till she is flying back home. Ouch.

This is sort of aggravating. In that fun realizing your going bonkers way. They say everybody has a lookalike.

I think that everyone I know back home, yeah, all their lookalikes live here. or sound a likes.

Like, I just heard Danny in the hall. and Allyn has like.. 40 lookalikes. Its the fad, minus the lip piercing. Ive also seen Adam and Leigh and Hrenyk and other people. There is too many to remember them all. Its just like 'whoa, fuck, I know you. wait, wait a minute, no, no I dont.'

Which is odd, but it makes you go bonkers.

They said that once you start dreaming with your friends speaking german, that nothing is the same after.

I still dream with you guys speaking english. But I dont, not all the time. Or I just dont speak. That is becoming popular, me not speaking. I really think I will become a mute for a while. One of these days.

rambleeeeee

Please no more california songs.
Please no more california songs.
Please no more california songs.

I love his voice.

Please no more california songs.
And fuck New York Toooooooo.

I swear too much. Bad Alicia.
Nasty habit.
At least I dont bite my nails.

I like pasta. With sauce. Or without.
Cooked dough.

Sooo

Yeah How goes?

Little bit strange to be sitting here in austria. Well, just to be sitting here. Its like, a feeling.

Did you know (you being the invisible audience that I have magically captured the interest of, though after what, two months? of not posting, I can see the floating programs and that rickety chair in the corner with the loose spring still slightly wobbling.) That I have almost died three times?

Ones I almost choked to death, once I almost burned to death and another ... I think I almost bled to death but Im not sure, I will have to check with my mother.

Ive been in the hospital quite a bit. For breaking things or swallowing things or puking too much, or being there for my mom when her ex convinced her she was crazy, or when he had broken her arm again, or pushed her down the stairs, or punched her. Or, when she decided that she was too fat and starved herself until under 100 pounds. That was his fault to. He had an idea of her that she had to fit herself in.

Dont know why Im writing this. Writing for the sake of writing I guess.

One day I started writing a story, with no plan or anything. Now that story is over 30 pages. I just kept writing. It was just after I had moved host families but was still in the same class with my host sister.

Usually with stories I get stuck and give up after 3 pages. so hopefully this one will be published, and I will be critized like that kid who wrote aragon. I havent even read the stupid book. But I knw lots of people dont like it, and dont like him for getting it published. Its not his fault his parents owned a publishing company, give the kid a break, he worked hard.

Alicia is in an unconcentrated mood.

She bought a candle at the 75 cent shop, it smells like apple, but not when its burning. It has burned quickly too.

Aaron is sending alicia songs. One of them had cats meowing. That was a little komisch.

They cook mashed potatoes with nutmeg here. muskatnuss. It tastes a little different, but its good. They did that in my last host family as well. But they made insta-potatoes. Which tasted like crap.

Cailin has gone back to Australia, along with Ellie. I have to go and see them within 5 years. That sounds sort of realistic right? 5 years to get enough money to go? But then again I have 2 years of highschool, one year of college and two years of university in that span. I dont think I will have enough money. Ill make it work eventually.

I had a nap today. I remember being young, but I dont remember taking naps. Then I remember being a bit older, and being tired, and my mom telling me to take a nap, and me informing her that I cant sleep in the daytime.

Thats seemed to change since I have got to Austria. I think its because you are genuinly tired. That isnt spelt right. genuinely. There. I think. Maybe.

I just noticed that I threw my shirt on inside out. No matter, my host brother always says that. I didnt go to school in this shirt, and my shirt was the right way out at school, and no one really cares here at home what I am wearing.