Untitled.

Hey Hey You You
I don't like your girlfriend
No way No way
I think you need a new one
Hey Hey You You
I could be your girlfriend

Alicia is to obtain a photo of Leonhard,

For Linds.

He's got a cute smile.

And shares knowing smirks with me,

When someone is being a complete idiot.

Its fun, having a sort of ally.

Hey Hey You You

I know that you like me

No way No way

No, it's not a secret

Hey Hey You You

I want to be your girlfriend

I've got more and more friends daily.

More and more of them are realizing that Im cool.

Even the blonde devil in my class is easing up.

Slightly.

You're so fine

I want you mine

You're so delicious

I think about you all the time

You're so addictive

Don't you know

What I can do

To make you feel alright

I've been looking at horoscope shit lately.

Apparently I think I rule the universe.

And Im really shallow and vain.

Oh, and Linds and me would be passionate.

And Aaron and I would be like.. workable.

And Cody and I would be able to read each others minds.

Who fucking figured.

Don't pretend

I think you know

I'm damn precious

And hell yeah

I'm the mother fucking princess

I can tell you like me too

And you know I'm right

Tomorrow it is quite possible,

That I am not going to school tomorrow.

I have to go to the Visa office first.

And depending on how long that takes..

She's like so whatever

You can do so much better

I think we should get together now

And that's what everyone's talking about

Life is going pretty good,

I know Im going to miss Austria now.

At first I wasnt so sure.

But at first I had no friends

no real connections with anyone in my daily life.

Now I've got a family that I love,

Friends who I adore,

Who also think Im insane, but thats a give in.

Extroverted Canadian versus Someone Introverted,

Civilised, and Austrian.

Hmm

Hey Hey You You

I don't like your girlfriend

No way No way

I think you need a new one

Hey Hey You You

I could be your girlfriend

Im running out of things to say.

But the song isnt over yet!

Imma just post the rest.

Deal?

Hey Hey You You

I know that you like me

No way No way

No, it's not a secret

Hey Hey You You

I want to be your girlfriend

I can see the way

I see the way

You look at me

And even when you look away

I know you think of me

I know you talk about me all the time

again and again

So come over here and tell me what I wanna hear

Better, yet, make your girlfriend disappear

I don't wanna hear you say her name ever again

Because...She's like so whatever

You can do so much better

I think we should get together now

And that's what everyone's talking about

Hey Hey You You

I don't like your girlfriend

No way No way

I think you need a new one

Hey Hey You You

I could be your girlfriend

Hey Hey You You

I know that you like me

No way No way

No, it's not a secret

Hey Hey You You

I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger

'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better

There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in

She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger

'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better

There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in

Anyone possibly want to download then send to me?

Pretty Please?

She's so..

Did I forget about the simple rule of life
You pay a price for all your choices
Well I`ve learned my lesson
Looking from the other side

Guy who sings the song is named Tobias Regner.

Go figure.

Alicia's bank card didnt work again today.

But she emailed Ingrid, and she said,

that it was ok and could be late.

So basically Rotary is gunna pay it for me,

And then go "Hey, Alicia, you gotta pay us back"

every five minutes.

BUT I STILL GET TO GO.

I thought that I was through

Don't know who's fooling who cause

Shes, She's so unforgettable

She's so unerasable

It kills me slowly not to be around her

So, She's so unforgivable

And if I never understood

It hits me now

She's so damn good

I had a daydream.

In it, I owned a green jeep,

Was camping, with my mom and her girlfriend

Yah, she had a girlfriend,

Oh, and Cass and my boyfriend.

You dont need to know who that was.

I had a party with 50 people,
got engaged,
got pulled over by the cops,
(For having my music too loud.)

And someone asked me to sleep with him,

which made me laugh.

I talk myself into that bullshit all the time

At least it made me so much wiser

I tell my friends I really got her off my mind

Then I told my mom I was,

engaged and not a virgin.

Just like, a passing comment.

And she was like "uh, what?!"

Then I explained to her,

That when my grandmother took me,

to Austria for a vacation,

I snuck out, leaving her sleeping,

in my host families house,

And ran into a friend..

Yeahhh....

Did I say that I was through?

Don't know who's fooling who cause

She's so unforgettable

She's so unerasable

It kills me slowly not to be around her

She's so unforgivable

And if I never understood

It hits me now

She's so damn good

Other then that, I get to pay 1230€

But my bank card isnt working

I also missed my german lesson today

Because she made it an hour earlier.

And didnt tell me.

Then blamed it on me that I had a free hour

the hour before the class, so she couldnt find me,

Though in the break she was talking to my friend,

sitting right fucking beside me,

and could of told me then.

Wish what I feel

Could be for real

Not just a one way cry

That don't seem to fly

I was going to make a post totally in German.

But then I thought of Linds.

So I figured Id be nice.

Though she thinks I have the mindset,

Of an undersexed teenaged boy.

I dont hold it against her.

She's so unforgettable

She's so unerasable

It kills me slowly not to be around her

She's so unforgivable

And if I never understood

It hits me now Shes

She's so damn good

So this lady that goes on my bus every once in a while talked to me.
She said "wow, its hot," and took off her toque. (Its pronounced tuuk)
Then she asked me to set the time on her cellphone cause she didnt understand it.
Well, I dont really understand cellphone german either, but I knew enough from
fiddling around on my sisters and looking at the pictures.
So I set it for her.
Then she started talking about the mountains and snow.
But she said mountain instead of berg.
So I knew she spoke english.
So I interupted asking, and we started talking in english.
I think she is from like, Jamaica.
Nice lady.

Bank Card wasnt working today.
I tried it 3 times. Then it was like "sorry, no more trying"
Said I had the wrong pincode.
I know my pincode.
And I need to pay my skicamp
By tomorrow!.


Shitshitshitshit

Weekend.

Hello? Is anyone there? Can anyone hear me? Can anyone feel me? Am I even here? Im feeling like Im floating. And not in that good, on a light cloud way. On that weird sinking gravity confusing cloud way. It could be the fact that my life is basically a rollercoaster right now, and I have only slept 3 hours, and have school tomorrow. I really wish I was Chels, she doesnt have to go to school, she just lounges on the Thai beaches.
I was so excited about Eurotour, and I might not be able to go, because of the stupid Visa, which I didnt get around to obtaining. Well, I tried, back in December, and then I forgot about it after the school break ended. Then I remembered and I have everything I need for it, but I have to go with my councellor, and he is like, not returning my calls. But if I dont have it
by March 15th the latest, I might not be able to go. Fuck.
I also have to email my mom and ask her to fax me some thing saying from her that I am allowed going, as we are going to a whole lot of different countries. Im going to Spain and Holland and Cheq. and Italy and the whole tour starts about a half hour away from where I live. Which means I dont have to take a 4 hour train with pent up nerves of seeing everyone again. And I can go early, because its not far. Or I could sleep in and go late.
We went to Zankl yesterday and today. My host sister was a bit sad because the younger one didnt show up, and the older one did, and was being a bit of an ass. Though no one seemed to remember him being an ass before, I do. It was funny for me. But he was still hitting on me and stuff, so thats always fun. Then (this was saturday) we went home and my other host sisters best friend and her were like, a bit on edge, so the friend hung out with me and the younger host sister and they fell asleep at 2 or so. Alicia did not have that luxury.
She fell asleep at 3.30 and woke up at about 5 because she was cold. So she ran upstairs, grabbed her blanket and ran back down. We all slept on the same couch, three of us girls. Then Alicia fell back asleep about 7, and we woke up at 8 and had breakfast (which was fresh from
Italy) and played a really complicated version of Uno (when a 9 is up you have to slap hands down, last one down has to take two cards, when a 1 is up, you have to connect thumbs up signs and the one on the top takes a card, when a 7 is up, you switch hands counterclockwise.) and
an Italian game and watched some movies. Then we went back to Zankl, at about 6pm, after Tati (Tatiana. 13, sluttish.) showed up. Played some foosball, stole a ball so we dont have to pay an euro every time, (we just put cardboard in the goals, then the ball goes in, but not down.) drank some sprite (Im the only one old enough to drink Alcohol, and really didnt want to.) got bored and went home. Tati is sleeping here tomorrow. She is avery odd girl. My host sister Eva says that she doesnt like her. But then Tati says she has the number of the younger, that Eva likes, and all of a sudden they are gossiping and giggling like lifemates. Its kinda sad, how much Eva wants the number.

Song break:

Mach die Augen zu und Küss mich.
Und dann sag das du mich liebst.
Ich weis genau, es ist nicht wahr.
Doch ich spüre keinen Unterschied, wenn du dich mir hingibst.

And for Linds, (And others?) the less romantic english version!
Roughly Translated by me personally!

Close your eyes and kiss me.
And then say that you love me
I know that its is not true,
but there is no difference if you give yourself to me.

Im thinking Im too lazy to translate the whole song.
Read it here if you want the whole damn thing. ^^Click Here. +)

I dont know what else to say, writing for the sake of writing gets boring it seems.
There is this cute boy in the class of my friends. I hang out there in the break. (Only one break, 15 minutes. So sad.)He talks to me, one day I was on the computer when he was beside me, (this was in my free block) and he was all "Wow, look how fast she types," and started imitating me, which, really, all he did was pound the keyboard. I actually articulate thought, for the most part. There is another boy in that class, he always talks to me too, but not cute. He is always "Hello! How are you,So, where exactly do you live? Do you need money? (This was when I was buying something at the canteen) "Good english.
Tomorrow I have two hours first thing of history. I dont like my history teacher. He asked me a question one dayconcerning History, like "What are your views on the downfall of the Roman empire" or some shit, cause he didntrealize I am an exchanger. Then he was all "oh, I didnt know" when everyone started laughing and saying "ya, she doesntknow much german".
I do, really, they just dont need to know that. Its not my fault that they dont have the patience to let me think about it.I can write better then I can speak though. Its that whole, afraid of saying it wrong because I usually do thing. But whatever.
I have to play Volleyball on the 6th of March in a school tournament.
Apparently Tati and Eva are going to Zankl tomorrow. I have 12 hours school (till 6pm) tomorrow, and then Volleyball after. It never seemed like a lot of time back home, being at school till 6. Here it is like, a life sentence.

So this is Alicia as the artist started painting her face. Her host sister Eva decided that it would be a good idea to take photo's all the way through. Then she got offered alcohol and forgot, so Alicia had to remind her. This is rather difficult, typing enough to span the size of the picture so the other picture gets enough space and whatnot. Layout making is tough work. Anyways, the whole painting took like... 20 minutes. In the future, when I cant think of information, I will be posting song lyrics. Just so you know in advance.

This is the artist that painted Alicia's face.
He also painted some pictures that are hanging up in Zankl, lyrics will be in another colour.

Mama was queen of the mambo

Papa was king of the Congo

Deep down in the jungle

I started bangin' my first bongo

Every monkey'd like to be

In my place instead of me

Cause I'm the king of bongo,

babyI'm the king of bongo bong

This is Patricia. She is 9 or something. Cute little kid. Likes to play cards and foosball. Thankfully not the annoying little 11 year old that wouldnt shut up about the boys that kept looking at me.

Like its really my fault that people look at me.

Im used to it.

I went to the big town

Where there is a lot of sound

From the jungle to the city

Looking for a bigger crown

So I play my boogie

For the people of big city

But they don't go crazy

When I'm bangin' in my boogie

This is (From left to right); Andy (Barkeep), Patrick (W.), Michelle (French name.), and Patrick (H).

I love this photo. Its like what we do back home. But there would be a lot more groping back home. Just cause. And probably more females. Even if one is dressed as a female. He gave kisses all night, always reapplying lipstick and kissing some poor sucker on the cheek, leaving a bright pink lip mark. Hehe.
Notice the blue stockings and dress falling 'up'. Pretty damn sexy right? Nah, but he was cool. Is cool, still, maybe.

This is Patrick and Patrick. In no particular order XD.

I dont know who these people are. Check out that chicks red eyes. Flippin creepy. XD

Bluntly Put...

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.

Im in a rocking disoriented mood.

In the way that I can remember exactly,

what Ive eaten, and how much Ive slept

since friday.

I can tell you that neither are very much.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

Its not that Ive been starving myself.

Or making myself stay awake.

just taking a bit of food or a drink of water,

sends my stomache stumbling.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

And with the sleeping thing,

I didnt sleep at all Saturday,

Slept four and a half hours Sunday..

Slept I think 6 Monday,

And last night I woke up at 3am wide awake.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me

It used to get like this when someone,

wasnt telling me something that they should.

I could always tell.

It always physically affected me somehow.

Its not always someone who is close to me either.

Just someone who feels connected to me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

My physics teacher (who is also,

my volleyball coach),

asked me to the front of the class today,

at the beginning of class,

and talked to me about volleyball.

Then he asked me a question during class,

that no one knew the answer to,

and because I didnt know it,

made me and the girls beside me who also didnt know,

go up to the board and do all the examples.

Bastard.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I told Katie a week ago,

that I needed a glass of water,

before I jumped into the pool.

It was a metaphor, and I thought

of it on the spot. That was boss.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

This is my 183 post. But Im deleting one,

so its my 182.

Because it double printed my last one.

I finally transferred to the google way of blogger.

If I have to do the "labels for this post"

Imma write "random teenaged babbling"

Thats all I ever do.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

-fin-

Double Argh With Knobs Austrian Style?

If I told you it happened again would you listen?
Would you believe me?
Have you ever fully believed me?

So, we had faschings.
That was a total blast.
Its like, the whole city dressing up and then getting drunk.

But if I hear:

Einen Stern der Deinen Namen trägt
Hoch am Himmelszelt
Den schenk ich Dir heut Nacht
Einen Stern der Deinen Namen trägt
Alle Zeiten überlebt Und über unsere
Liebe wacht

Or:

Aber eins kann mir keiner, (eins kann mir keiner) (2x)
eins kann mir keiner, (eins kann mir keiner)
eins kann mir keiner nehmen und das ist die pure Lust am Leben!

IMMA SHOOT SOMEONE.

Because they got drunk. Then they sang it in the street. Then they sang it to me. And then they started changing other lyrics to fit me, and sang them.

Oh, So, btw... WITHDRAWALS GONE. Heh.

I think I left my halo in the overhead compartment of the plane to Copenhagen.

So, I was gunna like.. give the whole detailed version, (but I think I will just give the overview )which I will write somewhere and let it eventually get put up here (because you all love hearing about my life...XD) and then the few people who read this can go 'Omg Alicia you did what?! You?! And he did what?!'

But lets not get into that right now. I dont have the energy to be that specific. (Plus, no one is online to vent at and consequently bring up more memories of the night by it.)

So:
Alicia met a boy at a bar.
The first way they ever communicated was him asking a stupid question and alicia giving the finger.
Later they played fussball. (Like, with a table and shit.) on the same team.
A little girl was there (11) and when he hugged Alicia because they won, she burst laughing.
Then informed alicia that 'OMG HE LIKES YOU'
I was never like this at 11. A hug is a hug.
Then Alicia was dancing with her host moms friend.
And he cut in.
Alicia cant dance these funny austrian dances.
But he made her dance with him anyways.
(I learned later that my host sister was like 'yeah, sure, she can dance' when he asked her.)
Thankfully the little girl wasnt there. She woulda been on my case the rest of the night.
Then a man in a purple latex suit (sometime later) (btw, like 40.. )walked into the bar and grabbed my boob.
I just took his hand off and kept walking.
My host mom wanted me and my host sister (13) to go home, because she wanted to go into the city.
I said I would take care of my sister and we stayed there for a bit.
(Sidenote: We had been hanging out with two guys (the one I danced with) and for like.. 4 or so hours and whatnot in the fussball room (seperate room from the bar area, quiet.. ) both are ... Well, lets say both are older then Aaron. Almost. One is the same age.) And anywho, after my host mom left we went to the older (kay. he's 21) guys house and grabbed bacardi and jim beans. then we walked to my house.)
Then after that we sat outside for a bit (at this point the younger was kissing my neck. Ha.) then my host mom came home. And we stayed outside cause we didnt want her to see us (still being kissed.) then she went to her room to go to bed and we went upstairs to mine. (sidenote: after like two hours at the bar, the younger kept saying 'Im sleeping at your house or you are sleeping at mine tonight' to me. XD)
So then I unlocked my door, cause I had locked it earlier when we got home cause I didnt want him snooping around in it. and then we went out on my deck, (more kissing), my host sister and the boys smoking, then being hugged cause it was cold (and a convienent way for him to get closer so he could grab my ass XD)
Then going inside, and yeah, more kissing and whatnot...
Then him asking me to go to bed... and his friend laughing.
Then it was like ... 4 in the morning, and I was bored of him kissing me.. (und weiter aber das 'is detailed.' )
So I asked my host sister (who had moved to the bed , as all of us sleeping on the floor would be stupid.) if she was tired and she said no, so I asked her if she wanted to play cards.

I know, Im probably one of the only girls in the world that complains of withdrawals, has a boy kissing up on her, and would rather play cards cause he bores her.
Im so cool.

So then he asks me (and Im going to remember this for a long time) (and sorry linds, I can only say it in german) 'Willst du es nicht?'
To which I replied 'Na'
And his friend burst out laughing.

Oh, shit, I forgot, before this he was like, laying on me, (Erm, I was sitting with my knee's up, and he was lying against them.) and his friend (who is really nice, adorable.. funny. cut a ketchup bottle in half cause nothing would come out... o.0) was looking at pictures (didnt tell us that) on his camera (I swear he just kept taking them damnit.) so then the younger wants it dark (cause the cell had a really strong light) and he is all like 'shut off your damn phone' and then they like, argue, cause one wants to continue kissing up on me, and the other wants to look at photos. So finally the first one asks 'What the deuce are you doing anyways' something along those lines and the older replies 'Im looking at photos of tonight' I was just like 'Oh shit, what all does he have on his phone' in my head.

Anywho, after I said no, he climbed into bed with my host sister and started trying shit with her.
He is 19. She is 13. Thats a little young.
But whatever.

the sad thing is that now she likes him. and I think she thinks he likes her.
I dont think she understands the ''your just a piece of young ass' concept.

And now she is also ''OMG WE GOTTA GO THERE NEXT WEEKEND'
Which, I have no problem with. But she went all... 'we can go this weekend and this weekend and this weekend....'

Little overdone.

SONG:

Skip town. slow down
Push it to the east coast
Step down turn around
Push it to the west
Need less, use less
We're asking for too much I guess
Cause all we get is...

Dead disco Dead funk Dead rock and roll
Remodel Everything has been done
La la la la la la la la la la

Tits out, pants down
Overnight to London
Touch down, look around
Everyone's the same
World wide, air tight
No one's got a face left to blame

Dont need more, its just the chorus over and over again.

If anyone can dfind me the lyrics of 'This is for you' by Velvet, I would be happy.

You're a heavy hitter, but unlike the full-on alpha type, you don't care to play Boss Lady all the time. After all, with leadership comes a lot of -- sigh -- expectations, and you like your freedom too much to play that game. You're fine near, not at, the top at work, and find fulfillment in your personal life. You know the modern woman's secret: it is possible to have it all, just not all at once.

Or not?

We had fire in our eyes
In the beginning I
Never felt so alive
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't want to hear it anymore

I might be going to Ireland in April

I have to ask one of my friends,

to see if she will ask her homeroom teacher.

To see if I can go with them.

Cause its not my class.

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

We have a storm warning.

7 people dead.

Its 130-150km/h winds.

Its called an Orkana.

I think that means "Shit, we're doomed"

In some language.

We had time on our side

In the beginning we

We had nothing to hide

In the beginning you

You blame me but

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't want to hear it anymore

I might go visit Lucy or Maija,

for part of Easter break.

Its a long way off, I know,

but you gotta plan ahead.

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

I just don't care about you anymore

One of my sisters is a stripper.

It doesnt phase me.

It doesnt matter to me.

She saves up her money and see's the world.

She's been to Ecuador, and Thailand.

She goes to the U.k. in March,

She's seen Panama and Peru,

Mauritius, Japan, United Arab Emerites,

and other parts of Canada.

You say that I didn't try

You say that I didn't try

You say that I didn't try

I swear I never meant to let it die

I just don't care about you anymore

It's not fair when you say that I didn't try

Vancouver Island is located off Canada's Pacific coast and is part of the Canadian province of British Columbia. The island is 460 km (285 miles) long and up to 80 km (50 miles) wide. The largest island on the western side of the Americas at 32,134 square kilometers (12,407 square miles), it is the world's 42nd largest island, Canada's 11th largest island and Canada's second highest populated island. The island is named in honour of George Vancouver, the British Royal Navy officer who explored the Pacific northwest coast between 1791 and 1794

So, I have to do this project on canada and where I come from and shit.
And I am at school, where I cant print things. This goes here for now.

Comprising ten provinces and three territories, Canada is a bilingual and multicultural country, with both English and French as official languages at the federal level

The name Canada comes from a word in the language of the St. Lawrence Iroquoians, canada, meaning "village" or "settlement"

Capital Ottawa

Prime Minister Stephen Harper

32.8 million people

Canada by far has more lakes than any other country in the world and has a large amount of the world's freshwater

Banknote peoples, from 5$ on:

Wilfrid Laurier, John A Macdonald, Queen Elizabeth II, William Lyon Mackenzie, King Robert Borden

Bathtub racing started in Nanaimo, British Columbia and involves the use of a bathub boat. The first races began with the "Nanaimo to Vancouver Great International World Championship Bathtub Race" in 1967.[1] The idea was conceived to showcase Nanaimo to the world.

Yeah

There are no guarantees in life
Not for the present,
Nor for the future.
All I know is That I'm here;
Don't know for how long.

So, I had this whole layout planned.

To Discuss, topics and all.

Then two days went by.

And Still I hadnt posted.

I realised that it isnt so important anymore.

I realised I have changed.

I love the way

You live so intensely

Enjoy every minute of life

With space to swing

Your arms around

Laughing loudly

I was going to write about how this girl,

She used to bug me a lot, when I first

Changed classes, Always calling my name,

Trying to get me to look at her.

So she could laugh.

I ignored her, and it subsided.

It didnt end mind you.

Unlike me

Unlike me

Do you think I'm strange?

Unlike you

Unlike you

I am not pretending

Then yesterday she needed my help.

She needed a good mark in english.

Im not one to be mean,

So I helped her.

No questions asked, no snide remarks,

just correcting her sentence structure.

There is no time,

There is no time,

There is no time,

Time doesn't really exist.

Today she came up to me.

We just talked.

It seemed normal.

Somehow twistedly normal.

The past, the present,

And the future,

Are all side by side,

Hand in hand.

You move and change,

Yet you go nowhere:

Everything stays the same.

My closest friend here,

Would be either Magdalena

Melanie, Or Julia.

Julia is 15, the other two 14.

I play Volleyball with the

younsters. But Melanie,

She broke her finger.

You stare at me,

And ask me questions,

Makes me nervous,

This room it keeps a constant tone

While I'm on a roller coaster

I'm already an oldbie here,

We have newbies from Aussie Land.

I guess I will meet them in March.

I am 17 in 6 months and 13 days.

In 7 months, or just over,

I am no longer an Outbound,

But a Rebound, a Rotex kid.

Unlike me

Unlike me

Do you think I'm strange

Unlike you

Unlike you

I am not pretending

I have to do a Rotary Project.

About what we do in my city.

There was no information,

On the website.

I find that idiotic.

So I emailed the president of the Club.

Asking for information.

There is no time

There is no time

There is no time

Time doesn't really exist

I love this song.

My host sister came in,

And asked what it was.

Then said it was horrible.

And left.

I love my host sister.

She's hilarious.

Random Useless Update

...Number ... -insertimpossiblyhighnumberhere-

So, I can crack walnuts with my bare hands. That makes me cool right? Its a nifty talent.
I only obtained the information that I obtain this talent when I could not seem to obtain a nutcracker.

Ha. obtain.

Other then that, Ive been complaining about this homework assignment I have to do for the past.. two weeks to basically anyone that will listen. Im actually going to finish it in the morning cause I got off my lazy arse and actually did most of the damn thing.
So, the main character who is really annoying and always blowing up unrealistically (the thing was written in the 50's, the guy mussttaa been livin in the 70's a little early. If you understand that, raise your left hand.)

Anywho, he makes some sense after he like, chills down. Here (example.):

The heaviest strongest creatures in the world seem to be the lonliest. Like the old bear, following his own breath in the dark forest. There's no warm pack, no herd to comfort him. That voice that cries out doesnt have to be a weaklings does it?

This would be after he tells his wife (when she is pregnant, he just didnt know it yet) that he wishes that something cruel would happen to her, like having a baby fully formed in her, and it dying in her.. (which happens.) And then starts screwing around on her while she is recovering at her parents house (she had been gone for three months..) with her best friend. Then she randomly walks into the house and he tells his new beau that 'her friend is here' . Well, then the new beau decides that she is going to flee to London and then when she is gone they (the husband and wife) start talkig and this is some of the guilt trip he lays on her. See, he is an annoying prick.

Nother.... exerpt? Is that right?

You've got to be really brawny to have that kind of strenghth - the strength to relax... (Pointless bit about how she is a big fake) In order to relax, you've first got to sweat your guts out...

doesnt sound very relaxing does it?

Alicia is bored... And tireeed... And realized its only 20 weeks till she is flying back home. Ouch.

This is sort of aggravating. In that fun realizing your going bonkers way. They say everybody has a lookalike.

I think that everyone I know back home, yeah, all their lookalikes live here. or sound a likes.

Like, I just heard Danny in the hall. and Allyn has like.. 40 lookalikes. Its the fad, minus the lip piercing. Ive also seen Adam and Leigh and Hrenyk and other people. There is too many to remember them all. Its just like 'whoa, fuck, I know you. wait, wait a minute, no, no I dont.'

Which is odd, but it makes you go bonkers.

They said that once you start dreaming with your friends speaking german, that nothing is the same after.

I still dream with you guys speaking english. But I dont, not all the time. Or I just dont speak. That is becoming popular, me not speaking. I really think I will become a mute for a while. One of these days.

rambleeeeee

Please no more california songs.
Please no more california songs.
Please no more california songs.

I love his voice.

Please no more california songs.
And fuck New York Toooooooo.

I swear too much. Bad Alicia.
Nasty habit.
At least I dont bite my nails.

I like pasta. With sauce. Or without.
Cooked dough.

Sooo

Yeah How goes?

Little bit strange to be sitting here in austria. Well, just to be sitting here. Its like, a feeling.

Did you know (you being the invisible audience that I have magically captured the interest of, though after what, two months? of not posting, I can see the floating programs and that rickety chair in the corner with the loose spring still slightly wobbling.) That I have almost died three times?

Ones I almost choked to death, once I almost burned to death and another ... I think I almost bled to death but Im not sure, I will have to check with my mother.

Ive been in the hospital quite a bit. For breaking things or swallowing things or puking too much, or being there for my mom when her ex convinced her she was crazy, or when he had broken her arm again, or pushed her down the stairs, or punched her. Or, when she decided that she was too fat and starved herself until under 100 pounds. That was his fault to. He had an idea of her that she had to fit herself in.

Dont know why Im writing this. Writing for the sake of writing I guess.

One day I started writing a story, with no plan or anything. Now that story is over 30 pages. I just kept writing. It was just after I had moved host families but was still in the same class with my host sister.

Usually with stories I get stuck and give up after 3 pages. so hopefully this one will be published, and I will be critized like that kid who wrote aragon. I havent even read the stupid book. But I knw lots of people dont like it, and dont like him for getting it published. Its not his fault his parents owned a publishing company, give the kid a break, he worked hard.

Alicia is in an unconcentrated mood.

She bought a candle at the 75 cent shop, it smells like apple, but not when its burning. It has burned quickly too.

Aaron is sending alicia songs. One of them had cats meowing. That was a little komisch.

They cook mashed potatoes with nutmeg here. muskatnuss. It tastes a little different, but its good. They did that in my last host family as well. But they made insta-potatoes. Which tasted like crap.

Cailin has gone back to Australia, along with Ellie. I have to go and see them within 5 years. That sounds sort of realistic right? 5 years to get enough money to go? But then again I have 2 years of highschool, one year of college and two years of university in that span. I dont think I will have enough money. Ill make it work eventually.

I had a nap today. I remember being young, but I dont remember taking naps. Then I remember being a bit older, and being tired, and my mom telling me to take a nap, and me informing her that I cant sleep in the daytime.

Thats seemed to change since I have got to Austria. I think its because you are genuinly tired. That isnt spelt right. genuinely. There. I think. Maybe.

I just noticed that I threw my shirt on inside out. No matter, my host brother always says that. I didnt go to school in this shirt, and my shirt was the right way out at school, and no one really cares here at home what I am wearing.