Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
Im in a rocking disoriented mood.
In the way that I can remember exactly,
what Ive eaten, and how much Ive slept
since friday.
I can tell you that neither are very much.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
Its not that Ive been starving myself.
Or making myself stay awake.
just taking a bit of food or a drink of water,
sends my stomache stumbling.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
And with the sleeping thing,
I didnt sleep at all Saturday,
Slept four and a half hours Sunday..
Slept I think 6 Monday,
And last night I woke up at 3am wide awake.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me
It used to get like this when someone,
wasnt telling me something that they should.
I could always tell.
It always physically affected me somehow.
Its not always someone who is close to me either.
Just someone who feels connected to me.
I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
My physics teacher (who is also,
my volleyball coach),
asked me to the front of the class today,
at the beginning of class,
and talked to me about volleyball.
Then he asked me a question during class,
that no one knew the answer to,
and because I didnt know it,
made me and the girls beside me who also didnt know,
go up to the board and do all the examples.
Bastard.
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I told Katie a week ago,
that I needed a glass of water,
before I jumped into the pool.
It was a metaphor, and I thought
of it on the spot. That was boss.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
This is my 183 post. But Im deleting one,
so its my 182.
Because it double printed my last one.
I finally transferred to the google way of blogger.
If I have to do the "labels for this post"
Imma write "random teenaged babbling"
Thats all I ever do.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
-fin-
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