Soz...

I wrote this last night. Just couldn't post it.

Don't try to read me.

You'll just get shot down.
In the sense that I'll completely close down, and you won't learn anything about me.
Ever.
Which seems to be a pretty good threat. Seeing as it stopped you on the spot.

But just to clarify.
You barely know me.
And to start trying to read me, and tell me what I'm doing, or feeling, when you're completely wrong, is just going to aggravate me.
That aggravation is going to cause me to completely close up. And no one would be very happy with you then.

Only three people are allowed to read me. And sadly enough, they're all communications via interwebs.

But those who don't know me know me the best. Which is switching from a physical to an emotional, psychological level.

Those three people would be (No drumroll needed. They make enough noise):

Cody, (Aka Cam Whore) because he knows more then I'd ever like to share again. Whether he remembers it or not is a different story. He doesn't have to try very hard to read me. Because he was always there. Which is what I needed. A constant. I guess he must of known that. He's one of the first ones to confront my overanalyzing things. He's one of the first ones to confront me on a lot of things. There isn't really much more I can say. With Cody, it's really kind of simple. You are either there, or you aren't. If you are thinking he's just one big like... thing to talk to, and he always listens, and never has to talk himself, then I've given the wrong impression. You have to give before you deserve to take. I can't define him very well. He's just... himself. <3

Shadow (Call him what you will, shadow has just stuck)He's getting better at reading me. Or at least telling me that he's reading me. But he just... observes really, and he doesn't pry, or ask too many questions. Which I like. Though I have very little faith in his promises. Mostly because he can't control everything. But it works out well in the end. He always lets me vent at him. He's the only one I let call me names. Ones which won't be printed on here in fear of mass manufacturing. I can deal with him calling me them, I can't deal with anyone else calling me them. Which is part of his charm I guess. Getting me to open up so easily. Or, he just knows the right buttons to push. Though he blames the opening up thing on the "you're not really real" illusion that the internet gives us. Which I believe I said to him one day, but I'm different. So I'm going to tell him to stop using that against me. The nerdy little tekkie that he is. <3

Then, there's Aaron.

Aaron (Aka Ralph Aka Meteor Aka S.B. (had to put that in there, sorry)Aka ... photography whiz?) And you thought you didn't have any nicknames. Well, I'm not sure if he's ever read me before. At least, if he has, he hasn't told me. Oddly enough, I'm sorta ok with that. Only sorta because I hate not knowing what's going on. But that really has nothing to do with Aaron now does it? Yes, actually, sometimes it does. See, Ralph is really odd, which I love, but it sometimes confuses me more then I like to admit. He's like... normal, until you're comfortable with his modified version of normal, then he goes and does something that totally throws you for a loop. Then you start from square one again, starting to think you understand him, till he goes and does it again. This happens more frequently around 4-5 am. But it happens in not so odd hours too. Like when I have to leave. It's just more noticable at 4-5 am. (Mainly 'cause my brain fully functions, and I still think in "over analyzation mode" I just can't spell, whereas he goes.. somewhat disoriented, unfocused, and all of that) Aaron's starting to sense things though. Which, I'm not totally comfortable with, but I'm not going to stop him. Or lie to him. Because there's no point, and I've nothing to hide.


It's weird, but they have their different... "styles"

Cody confronts.
Shadow treads softly and questions (With some bluntness. When pestered for it.)
And Aaron just sort of... exists. Which helps, whether he knows it or not.