I'm not normally a jealous person.
Really, I'm not.
I can't stand people that are jealous normally.
Which brings me to my dilemma.
(I know, so quickly it shows up. Not like me at all)
I can't stand myself.
For I am jealous.
Now let me explain without explaining.
Because it's what I do.
Vagueness is key in avoiding confrontation.
(Yes, I know I avoid confrontation. But only when I'm the one being confronted. Because I don't like it. Though sometimes I wish people would confront me more. Force me to deal with things. Or be more open or whatever. Yeah, I know, you just can't win with me)
Kay, so my explaining.
(I'm going to be talking, er, writing at the person I am .. jealous of.It's what I do. Talk to you without talking to you.)
I'm jealous of your ease, comfortability with people.
How easily you slide into something that took me weeks.
It took you less then a day.
I'm jealous of how you unconciously made me feel threatened,
made my position feel threatened.
I'm jealous of how quickly you became what I thought I was.
I'm jealous of the fact that you're better then me at what I'm good at.
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2 comments:
Roflmao.
Quite.
It's also a common theme with me and her, but of a different sort.
I'm awesome, she feels threatened. Game over.
It's not my fault that you're not nerdy enough for your friends :-p.
Ok, on a serious and not so much poking fun at you, note: there are other ways to avoid confrontation.
Running, screaming like a girl, kicking and then running, crying like a baby, laughing your ass off in the face of seriousness/danger, and of course - ambiguity.
Now while I've used all of these at one time or another (heh) I don't usually find that I do it with people.
I find it much more useful/fulfilling when just going up to the person and kicking ass (figuratively).
But, truth be told, the last time I confronted a situation like that. I was being jealous, too. Not something that's normal for me either, or not something that was.
I used the situation to try to cure myself, trying to play down what was really going on. And I lost.
Whoa... Not a very "Go get 'em, Tiger!" sort of story, was it?
If there's one thing I have learned, though, it's that you kick ass.
And now that I've all done and made things all different than they are, I'm done.
Though I have to admit I like you're style of ambiguity, because I use it too, of course. There are usually only two people who will understand it, and the second one is always iffy. I mean, who knows when I understand myself? That would be crazyness.
Does this sorta kinda make up for never reading?
I didn't think so either.
I'm with Aaron on this one.
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