January 10th, 2009

I'm so lame.
I hate love. Its emotionally straining, draining, and all togehter not worth it.
I'm starting to not believe in it. I mean, really, if love is really so sought after by the masses, the world is full of lunatics.

Excuse me miss
I seem to have lost track of time
What just happened?
How long have I been lying here?
Spread out on my back
You just confirmed my greatest fear

Sick and tired of being this way
I know how much you hurt
And how you know how hard I tried to change
Right all along, you told me I was fading
Nothing left for them to say
"Goodluck.You're gonna need it boy, you'll need it babe
If you're going to live that way"

Chorus:
I don't believe in love
You don't owe me anything
Believe me when I say
I could change some day

I don't believe in love
You don't owe me anything
If you need a place to hide
I am on your side

I know it's hard to find an open mind
The wildest ones were left behind
And thought they had it all
And knew exactly how we fall

I thought we'd seize the moment
The flames they rose high up to our knees
We tired to hide and hide the lies
I want to be alone
And on my own
All the holy bones
I want to feel alive
But strong on the outside

I've really got nothing good to say. I'm full of mistrust and its infecting my thoughts and emotions and I dont know how to feel any more about what we're doing.
If I was to know the truth I'd be more calm,
externally speaking I am already the definition, but inner turmoil breaks along the ridge of my cerebral patterns and I am just another landmark on your journey, am I not?
But if you were to tell the truth would I truly believe you? suspicious as I am, I would hope to, but I fear the opposite would prove most likely.
It is my own faults that ruin my relationships.