Trying

I'm going to try to write a lengthy post without mentioning someone.

There is this song called "Almost lover" that I listen to lots later. its really good.


I ripped my fingernail off, almost. its like, semi attached. it hurts. yay for being a klutz.
I just want to sleep, and I cant. everything is too loud. even in my head.
I tried cody's meditation method, where you push everything out?
Well, my thought processes are more eminent then my will it seems.
Having the crazy-est dreams lately too. I only remember flashes of feeling though, not what made me feel that way in the first place. and I am waking up uneasy like something really bad is about to happen.

Work is going alright. I get paid on friday and it should be a very large (compared to what I was making) check.

I still have to return my uniforms from subway. and my library book. I think I will get everything done tomorrow morning, seeing as I seem to wake up mega early even when (like last night) I went to bed at 1 in the morning, passed out cause I was under an influence, and was up at 5.
Four hours of restless sleep, only to get up and go to work for 9 hours. Hmmm...



It seems there is something wrong with me and I dont know what it is. Im soooo lazy nowadays too. its frightening.

Im going to try and nap so tomorrow I am more productive. Was this a long post? Hell no. Is it going to get much longer? Probably not.