Magnetism?

It seems to be, when I really need someone, or even just want them a tad more then just casually, they show up. Now, I dont mean romantically. I mean like a burning need to talk to them, even if they're just a friend. Its happened before, lots, with Cody, as most people know. It happens at school all the time too, as soon as I get it into my head that I need to talk to someone, they show up.
So I wonder, will it work tonight?
Somehow I dont trust it when it comes to him.
So, Im going to take action, I know, me, taking action, big suprise.
When I call, hopefully he'll answer.
But I dont know what I want to say, I just know that I need to say it.
Need to say it desperately.
So much that its making my chest feel like someone's sitting on it, and my head feel like there isnt enough oxygen.
I dont understand how he does this to me.
Its never happened before.
The only emotion I can compare this with is like a dreaded fear.
How can you fear calling someone?
I think its more the fear of what they'll say.
But, if you stay on safe topics, how is that an issue?
I fear that I need to talk about an unsafe topic.
A topic so dangerous that the issue itself hangs from a glass thread.
The slightest wind, will smash it.
How is this possible?
Why do I feel this way?
Will the phone call, as I hope, make the feeling go away?
What about the other possibility? What if it gets worse?