Holy Parallel Universe Batman.

I just realised I have 10 more days of school till Eurotour.
And then one day of school after Eurotour.
And only 40 more days on this Continent.
That is saddening. Actually, its downright depressive.

In 40 days the journey is over.
I still feel like its just begun.
I cant actually see myself going home.
Though I can see myself waiting 7 hours in the Seattle Airport.
I have no idea what I am going to do for 7 hours in the Seattle Airport.
I think I will just sit there numbly thinking about Austria.
I know my mom wants me home.
and it makes me wonder why I dont want to go home.
I love my mom and all, but Im not attached to her anymore.
I cant tell what she is feeling when Im not there anymore.
She is frightened of losing that connection, I didnt even feel it slip away.

I still have to tell my school that my last day of school is the 5th of June.
I still have to talk to my old host sister and get her to give me the 30€ when
I give her the key to the locker.

I have to clean out my locker.
and buy some summer clothes.
and throw out the clothes that dont fit anymore.
By throw out I mean give away.

I have to say goodbye, and I so dont want to.
And its no use saying 'you have 40 days'
because I dont.
I have 10 to say goodbye to my friends at school.
I have eurotour to say goodbye to my exchange student friends.
and I have a couple of days after euro tour to say goodbye to my host family.

This is so gunna suck.